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Sunday, December 7, 2008

♥ Weekends..

"Lilliane! wake up, it's already 3pm." Katie, her sister said.

Lilliane opened her eyes, she had a hard time. The light blinded her eyes and she felt somehow dizzy. Her body somehow ached, maybe because of staying in bed for 12 hours.

She went downstairs and called her maid. "Manang, kakain na ako.." Then her maid prepared her food. Her sister dressed up and went out of their house.

Lilliane stayed there and watched the television. Ate some chocolates yet again. Then suddenly, the television turned off. There was no electricity.
Lilliane thought about the changes that occured during her first year in High School.

She had her teachers as her friends as well. She met different kinds of people in her class. Had new friends. New experiences and so much more pressure.

Lilliane realized that her weekends used to be boring and all. But now, she usually spends it with school activities.

She remembered going to Bea's house for the banderitas.

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Right after making some banderitas at Bea's house they didn't make much progress so Lilliane and Nikki decided to go to Chassy's house to make some more because they had a deadline. So they did. Lilliane tried to contact her sister first but she wasn't able to. No one answered the phone. But since Lilliane wanted to help, she just went to Chassy's house.

After arriving at Chassy's house, they saw her sister, brother, mother and father. Chassy, ordered some pizza and they started to make the banderitas. It was around 8pm when Nikki and Lilliane decided to come home.

They rode the same tricycle and talked about different things. Then while passing at the road, Nikki suddenly grabbed Lilliane's hand then entered a store. Lilliane became confused.

After entering the store she asked "Nikki, what's wrong?" Nikki simply replied "The guy's trying to grab your bag." Lilliane became worried but relieved since they were both safe. Nikki bought sme Soya drink. They rode another tricycle but when Nikki tried the drink, she threw it out. "Ugh" Nikki complained. Then Lilliane arrived at their house."Why'd you decide to go home?" her sister asked sarcastically. But she ignored it.

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Lilliane remembered some more experiences like when they went to Chassy's house and practice for their Novelty dance, also to make some props.

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It was a Saturday Morning. Lilliane met up with Yvette and the others to go to Chassy's house. After arriving, Lilliane helped with making Laura's costume. Sloanne had this material which is a leaf or a feather. Marky played with it and placed it on his hair. Lilliane and the others stared teasing Marky, calling him a member of the MoymoyPalaboy group.

Lilliane then helped with the props. Some more classmates came like Matthew and Chester their president. After making the props, they talked about their booth.

They decided on the game Agregates. The game's rules and regulations are: There would be different gangs. Also different spots. Once certain people step on those spots or marks, they would be brought by the gang's members to the booth. They then, would be asked a question, if they answer it correctly, they would be free and they would receive a prize. If they don't they need to pay 20 pesos.

Chester started painting the signs' stands. Then it was time for some Lunch.

Chassy's parents provided them with food. They lined up, then got some food. They teased Chassy and Charlie. Charlie, since Chassy liked him. He also looked like he felt at home, he even joined the line even though the only people there were chassy's family members. They laughed and all.

After eating, they went back to work. Some time passed and Keeno and the others started practicing the dance. Lilliane shared props with Terrence. This was nothing out of the ordinary. Ever since the Novelty practice started and they needed props.

Lilliane heard Nikki talking about Matthew being mad at her. It was time to go home. Matthew was still, silent. Nikki talked to him and knew that he's not mad at her but was only worried since he didn't know how to go home. They cleaned the mess up. Then took some props home. Yvetter brought the stands painted with black.

Lilliane, Sloanne, Nikki, Nica, Yvette, and Matthew then went home together. They bid their goodbyes to their classmates and started walking. They rode a tricycle.

After some seconds, like 10 maybe the driver asked. "Pede hanggang sa Shell na lang? Hindi ako pede hanggang Casimiro eh" They all laughed then left the tricycle.

They rode another tricycle. You might wonder how six people would fit one tricycle but they found a way. Sloanne and Yvette sat at the back seat. Lilliane and Nikki sat inside the tricycle. Matthew at the baby-sit. Nica, sat at the remaining space. The floor of the vehicle. Lilliane laughed at Matthew since he kept on hiding behind Nica everytime people would look. Yes, a lot of people looked at them. Probably wondering why they ddn't get two tricycles.

After reaching Casimiro, they saw Yvette. Yvette's shirt was full of black paint. She actually looked like a street child. They all laughed then entered a store. 7-11.

They all got one Slurpee and went to the cashier. Yvette brought her money out. The cashier suddenly chuckled. "Ei Yvette, the cashier's laughing at you. You look like a street child. " Lilliane pointed at Yvette then they started laughing. The ironic thing is, Yvette paid for the slurpees.

They left the store then rode a tricycle. They asked the tricycle driver to drop them off in front of their school. Lilliane, Matthew and Nikki went with Nica. Nica's dad dropped Lilliane off to her house.

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One time, they also went to school for their practice. They practiced at the bridge. Lilliane was surprised after seeing how energetic her partner is. Terrence. He wasn't usually energetic with dancing but he was that day. Like he never got tired. They also made their booth.

Lilliane took some cds from her house to use for the booth. She rode a tricycle together with maybe 5 other people. Then went back to their school.

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One Saturday they went to Philam park to practice their dance in History

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They didn't actually practice, since they just played. Lilliane played Tekken. Keeno and the others played Volleyball. They also ate lunch at Mcdonalds. Lilliane got some fries and some Latte. They went back to their school then played Volleyball again.

They saw the security guard riding a bike and borrowed it. Lilliane and Sloanne didn't know how to ride a bike so the others tried teaching them.

They saw other teachers as well.

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Another time, they went to PhilAm Park to practice their Religion contest.

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Another Saturday morning. Lilliane woke up late and when she arrived at their school. Her classmates have left her. She texted Yvette for the directions on how to go to the park. She did then she saw her classmates, playing. At the playground. She joined them, by using the swing. A little while and they went to some store to buy drinks or food. Lilliane and Sloanne went for a walk. They talked about Sloanne and Nate's relationship. It was because of a girl named Celine.

Celine, has been part of their group. The group was broken. It was torn apart. People went their seperate ways.

They tried fixing that friendship, little by little. In then end, nothing. They still had new sets of friends. Hang out with new people during lunch and recess.

Celine, actually is somehow childish. You wouldn't think of her badly at once. She's all friendly like, with her squeaky voice. Walks like a child too. She sometimes annoys Lilliane and Sloanne for some reason they don't know.

They walked and even saw some of the other section's students. They went back to their classmates.

Chester, their president came. Trisha as well. Then Era. The three of them came from some Math training.

They started practicing. Lilliane brought the manila paper containing the song lyrics out. Then they posted it somewhere. They started practicing, Anne played the flute, Chester, Patrick and Charlie with the guitar.

The dancers, listened to them and practiced. It was 12 pm. They asked about eating. Patrick commented. "You're too fat Lilliane" Lilliane, was really hurt. "Kelangan bang ipamukha?" was what she thought. The others came first to McDo. Lilliane joined Maryll, Terrence, Anne and Julie. They called a tricycle.


Anne and Julie stayed at the back. Lilliane, Maryll and Terrence were left to stay inside the tricycle. Maryll sat down immediately. "I want Terrence to sit beside me!!" Maryll whined. Lilliane didn't want to sit at te baby-sit so she remained outside. Suddenly it started to rain. Still, Lilliane didn't sit down.

Terrence, changed his position. He stayed at the baby-sit. Lilliane sat down beside Maryll. Lilliane knew Maryll really liked to sit beside Terrence. She even heard her complaining and all. It started to rain hard. They got off the vehicle and stayed under some roof. "Game, let's run ok?" someone said. Lilliane was game for this. She liked running under the rain. She would walk if she was allowed to.


She did run, just to find out the others haven't. She laughed. They all entered the restaurant.
They went to the counter and ordered some food. Lilliane, after getting her order went to Yvette and said "Hey Yvette, I'll stay behind you 'kay?" Yvette just nodded her head.

Lilliane sat down and then, the next thing she knew, Terrence was beside her. Lilliane didn't finish her food. They left. They rode the tricycle back to PhilAm.

They saw the, manila papers, ruined. They then transferred to the court. After a little while, some boys appeared then came some guys. They evacuated since the guys were.. Drug addicts or something. There was a problem. Chester, Charlie and Patrick had a 'mini-fight'. They left one by one. Lilliane went with the other. They came back to their school and played Volleyball.

Then Keeno got mad at Lilliane. Maybe it was a joke. Lilliane stayed in one place and took some time to think. Then Patrick saw her and stayed with her. Lilliane was crying. Not because of Keeno but because of her FAMILY.

She wasn't close to her parents. Her parents miss out on a lot of important ocassions. Her sister says bad words or tells her bad words.

She then had this sharing time with Patrick. Nikki joined them. The truth is, their family problems were worse than Lilliane's. They stayed 'til 6:30pm.

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Lilliane experienced a lot of changes. Especially during weekends. It's good to think back especially when she had nothing to do at home.

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Saturday, December 6, 2008

♥ One day parent or 10 month parent?

It was 10pm. December 5. Lilliane woke up and asked her sister "Are you done yet?" then she went downstairs. Then took some glass of water. Then she went upstairs again. "Lilliane, just use the computer tomorrow." Lilliane at first disagreed but after finishing Breakign Dawn she agreed and then became hyper. She chatted with her sister and more revelations came. "Who's the guy you have a crush on?" Asked her sister. She had no choice but say "Terrence" or else her sister would tell their parents. They talked about the movie Twilight, then Lilliane showed her a video in Youtube. About a girl named Elle who dies in the age of 14 because of Anorexia. Then Lilliane started talking about how fat she is but her sister told her not to be Anorexic and all.

Then it was 1am. She decided to sleep. The next day, she woke up. She opened her room's door and asked her maid "What time is it?" "12pm " answered her maid. Then she started panicing. She took a bath and wore a shirt and a pair of skinny jeans. Then she went to her sister's room and asked for money. Then she went downstairs, wore her socks and her chucks.

Then she grabbed some Cadbury chocolates for her breakfast/ lunch then left. She rode a tricycle and went to her school. Then she started looking for Keeno and Nikki. She wandered around the school. Seeing happy families everywhere. She felt envious but later on, she saw Isaac. "hey! do you know where Nikki and Keeno are?" Lilliane asked him. Then they searched for the two people.

They went to the band room and finally Lilliane saw them plus they were with Sloanne. Then they went to the Badminton Court. Keeno played badminton with Isaac for a short while but then Isaac's trainers arrived so Lilliane, Sloanne, Keeno and Nikki went to Sir Demetri. They chatted with him. Sir Tony showed up wearing his backpack. His work's over so it's time for him to go home. He grabbed Nikki's hand and asked her to walk with him up to the school gate. Nikki tried dragging Lilliane along but Keeno helped her get Nikki's hands off. A littile while and Nikki showed up again, now with a different person. Isaac.

Then they went to the gymnasium, Lilliane saw a mat and she decided to sit down. Keeno played with some of the things there and Sloanne excercised. Nikki was obviously sad. Probably because of Sir Tony. Then a janitor came so they all went to the stage and sat down. Then after some time, they jumped from the stage then walked to the Teacher's Faculty again. Keeno and Nikki wanted to play Volleyball so they borrwed a ball. A soccer ball. Keeno gave his ID to their P.E. teacher.

Since the soccer ball wouldn't be good as an alternative for a volley ball, they played soccer. Everytime Nikki throws the ball Lilliane would jump and then block the ball with her leg then start kicking it towards the net. It hurts yet it was fun. She remembered the times her eldest sister Marie used to play with her. Marie, during her college days, played in her university's Soccer team. So she saw her sister practice at home.

Lilliane scored at least 2 or 3 goals. They decided on playing human goal. Then they stopped. Lilliane laughed and laughed. She was really happy. Then they went to the teacher's faculty. They played truth or dare. Usually, it would be Sloanne who'd have to answer so many questions also Nikki.

After som time,Keeno wanted to play badminton, so they invited Sir Demetri to come the Badminton Court.They waited for the training to finish and then Keeno and Nikki played Badminton with Isaac and Rafael.

Lilliane and Sloanne sat down at the tables. "Hi Sir Demetri!" Keeno greeted. Sir Demetri came "Lilliane, your sister's there. " Lilliane just smiled, she knew that Sir Demetri was talking about Keira Greene. Then Sir Demetri went to the faculty again to fix some work or things probably but went back to them after a while.They chatted. Sir Demetri, Lilliane , Sloanne and Nikki. While Keeno played badminton with the others.

It was 4:30 pm. Sir Demetri had to leave. Nikki invited Lilliane to play and she did. After playing, Keeno made different jokes. He even became a model. Since it was getting late, they decided to go home.

They went out of the school and bought some drinks and food. They rode a tricycle. Lilliane after reaching home, opened the laptop and went online. She saw Terrence, Sloanne and other people. She chatted with him. Her sister Katie arrived from the Gym.

She asked Lilliane if she wanted to go out. She said yes. She bonded with her sister. She had fun, true. She doesn't always get the chance to bond with her sister. Which is, actually the only family member staying with her.

They rode the tricycle. Bought some stuff and food. They walked back home. She told her different stories.
"Uhmm.. the truth is, a while ago. I felt envious of the families playing BINGO, Basketball and more activities."
"I wonder, what would happen with our Christmas Party?" After that, they became silent.
Lilliane felt the cold wind and heard it. The street was silent as well.

They passed by a Veterinary Clinic and Lilliane spoke. She broke the silence between them. "I remember.. It was the same. Night time. I walked from the veterinary clinic, crying. After seeing Sam." her sister nodded but remained quiet.

Right after reaching home, she went to her room. Then she started using the computer again. She found out that Keira Hamilton IM-ed her.

keira_greene_15 has sent you a message
KeiraGreene: hi Lilliane
KeiraGreene: are you busy?
KeiraGreene: Lilliane?

Lilliane actually forgot to change her stat. She placed Available though she was actually out. The truth is, she was friends with Keira. They've shared secrets and laughed together. They were close. No one knew this as far as Lilliane knows.

Lilliane IM-ed Sir Demetri.

LSmith: Hi Sir *smiling emoticon*
Demetri_24: Hey *smiling emoticon*
LSmith: Sir were you Keeno, Nikki and Sloanne's one day father?
LSmith: Or everyone who went today?
Demetri_24: I'm your 10 month parent *smiling emoticon*

It was true. Sir Demetri and all their other teachers have been their parents from the start. They cared for their batch. At times they do get mad, but that's because they care. What they say is true. The more you hate the more you love. People who hate us loves us. Because if they don't they would simply ignore us and not mind those bad things they see in us.

Lilliane was thankful to Sir Demetri and their other teachers. The truth is, she loved this part of High School. Their teachers get to be their friends as well. They could share their secrets and problems.


Lilliane also continued chatting with Keira. Lilliane had so much fun chatting with her that she didn't realize it was nearly 1am. She allowed Keira to read her blog and they chatted still. They remained that way until 3am. Keira had to leave. She might get scolded by her parents if she didn't.

Lilliane, knowing that there's no one left she could chat with. Decided to log out and sleep.

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♥ One Year of Moving On

Lilliane woke up, then opened the curtain. The sky was dark, the clouds showed signs of rain that would soon pour down. She took a bath, even though the water was ice-cold. Then she dressed up, wearing her regular uniform. She got a black jacket and started going down the staircase.

Her maid didn't prepare anything for her to eat. Lilliane said "Good. At least it wouldn't be wasted" then her bus arrived, just as expected.

Her school bus waited in front of her house. The bus conductor, stood infront of their gate holding an umbrella. Lilliane walked towards the gate and let the rain pour down her hair. It was fine, her hair wasn't dry anyway.

Lilliane entered the school bus and just like the other days, students from a different school were there too. She was still feeling cold but tried to ignore it. Suddenly, Lilliane remembered her eyeglasses. So she asked the bus to go back to her house.

After getting her eyeglasses, the bus dropped the other students to their school. Then Lilliane transferred. She opened the window and felt the air. It was cold and it felt nice. She remembered, a year ago, December 5, started the same happy way. She wondered how it would turn out.

Her bus entered the school grounds. She walked with her second year friend but she wsn't wearing her jacket. It still felt cold, she smiled, talked with that second year and all. She then went to her classroom. Students in their school were allowed to go directly to their classrooms everytime it was raining.

She went to her place and drpped her things. Then she, sat down. She rested, and tried to sleep.
Her other classmates were there, laughing and all.

Time passed. They had a mass. She sat between two guys she doesn't know. Then she listened carefully to the priest. She could relate so she listened and all.

The mass ended. They went back to class. English time. They studied. Then recess. She didn't eat. She had to save up for the upcoming celebration. Then recess ended. Math time.

It was fun. The teacher, though, teased Sloanne. Math ended. It was Science time. They studied Chemistry. Then It was Filipino time. They studied the story Ibong Adarna. It was boring, Lilliane felt like sleeping, the truth is, she felt sick. Then Lunch time. They stayed at the Trellis. Chester approached her "Hey Lilliane, I need the money now." "Uhmm, I only have, 230 pesos or so." "Uhmm. we still lack 70 pesos." "Oh, I'll just borrow money from the class funds." "Ok." Then Lilliane gave the money to Chester.

Later on, Jaythe told her that she's gonna pay Terrence her remaining balance. Then "Oh, I almost forgot. I need to borrow money." Lilliane said. Instead of borrowing from Terrence she decided on asking Jaythe then, she would just pay the 70 pesos to Terrence the next school day. Jaythe agreed but still went to Terrence to give him the 100 pesos.

After a little while, Keeno called Lilliane. "Lilliane!" Then asked her to sit beside Terrence but she didn't. She just informed him about the money she borrowed. He took one glance of her and that's it. He remained silent and only nodded. Keeno still teased them, Nikki joined as well.

Nikki, Sloanne, Jaythe and Lilliane left Keeno's group and walked to the classroom. Then History class. Every Friday, they would have 2 hours of History. Lilliane used to LOVE history. That changed, after entering High School. For the first hour, they had their long quiz. The next hours, the class was totally chaotic. They didn't listen to the teacher, well they didn't know the teacher was giving lessons and all. Then the class ended.

Lilliane stayed with Sloanne and Nikki. Chester went to her, and told her that they would be staying at the bridge. They waited for the Pizzas but after a while, no pizza came. Chester called the restaurant to follow up the order. He was informed that the restaurant was waiting for some kind of confirmation so they didn't make the pizzas. Now, instead of the 4:15 pm arrival , it was changed into 5:15pm. "Exactly an hour after the expected arrival." Chester told the others. Lilliane rolled her eyes, then left the guys. She felt, Out of place there. Then she joined Nikki and the others, they played volleyball.

After a while, she saw, Sloanne sitting alone. She came to her and asked "Have you talked with Nate yet?" "No" was her reply. Nikki sat down beside Lilliane and told her, "Hey Lil. A while ago.. uhmm.. Laura asked me, 'Nikki, what's Sloanne and Lilliane doing there?' then I told her that you were waiting for the pizzas cause it's your celebration day. Then she said. 'Ahh we were the ones who told the teachers that they were playing at a computer shop.'"

Lilliane, turned her head towards Laura who was near them. She narrowed her eyes "So, she's admitting that she did that? Before they denied it and now.." Lilliane wasn't able to finish. She felt, annoyed.

Later on, Devin approached Lilliane. They went to the bridge but plans changed and they went to the chapel. They ate there. Devin started speaking "The firsr slice goes to the most innocent member of our group Angel's Cry? Oh wait.. Angel's kiss." Then he allowed Lilliane to have a slice. Then next was "2nd slice goes to, death wish." then "mighty wizard" then "bloody angel" then "suicide squad" then "strike raven" then last was their leader, Devin. Fiona wasn't able to join them. But they were still 7 there. A classmate of theirs came too. They talked about their past. Funny moments and instead of using drinks to cheers, they used pizzas.

Chester and Joe were the first people who left. For the others, they went to the teachers and gave away pizzas. They gave the last piece to Sir Miggy. He was the one who named them DK7.

Then the others left, Lilliane joined Nikki. They went to the comfort room. On their way, they saw Keira Greene. A Second year student. She said hi to Lilliane but even though they chat and Lilliane feels comfortable doing that. She still felt shy, like she wanted to run. She then said hi as well. Nikki and Lilliane continued walking.

Lilliane , after going to the comfort room returned with Nikki. Then "Nikki!" someone called out to her. Someone from the Teacher's faculty call out. Nikki knew who called her but pretended that it was Sir Demetri. The truth is, Sir Tony was the one who called her. "Why is it that when Sir Demetri calls you you would come to him and even put your arms on his shoulder?" Sir Tony asked. Then Nikki got more nervous then went to Sir Tony. Lilliane kept on laughing at the same time she thought of it as romantic. She saw Keira again. But still teased Nikki to Sir Tony.

She went with Sloanne and Keeno. They talked and stayed til 7pm. Then Nikki, Keeno and Lilliane rode the same tricycle. Then Lilliane felt happy after going home. She thinks Keeno's okay with her. She hopes she's right.

In her room. She sat down and thought "One year of moving on. *sigh*"
"I shed too many tears before but now I'm laughing at it. I guess, sometimes we just have to Accept. Let go. Move on. I saw my real friends through that experience and I'm stronger now. It's true everything happens for a reason. That there's a reason why people don't make it in our present. I'm happier now." Then she smiled. And as always, chatted with Terrence and her other friends.

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Saturday, November 29, 2008

♥ Breathless

"Take my hand, Take my life, Take take take take take take it away" Lilliane's alarm went on. Her aunt, Aunt Rebecca. She took the cellphone and turned the alarm off.


She stood up, feeling enthusiastic and opened the laptop. Later on, Nikki came. Lilliane was shock cause they never discussed anything about Nikki picking her up. She took a bath then she got dressed up. She was wearing a blue tube top, then a bolero. Next skinny jeans. She was about to wear some shoes with heels though she changed her plans after Nikki warned her that they would be walking non-stop. So she ended up wearing her flats.


They rode the tricycle to go to their school. They saw Maryll and Trisha. Then Anne, who just finished going to her club meeting. Anne told Nikki that Yuki would be joining them and Nikki approved.

Anne's parents came and offered them a ride on their way to Nikki's house. Lilliane was the first to enter, she greeted Anne's dad "Good afternoon" and they all sat beside her.

"Anne, I told Lilliane, 'kiss', I thought she was you." Anne's dad said then started laughing.


They arrived at Nikki's house. She brought her dog out and Anne started panicing. She was actually afraid of the dog. Then Lilliane played with the dog. She washed her hands then they ate lunch.

After eating, Nikki offered to go to the store since she knew that Lilliane needed to buy something. So they did, they bought so many things. Well, candies. All sorts of candies. Lilliane wrote her cell number to buy some load. "Hey Lil, what a big handwriting." Anne commented. The four girls started laughing. Her handwriting, actually was so small compared to the others.


They started walking back to Nikki's house. They stopped after seeing a park. They went to the swing. Anne pushed the swing Lilliane was using. Then, Yuki with Nikki. While they were panicing because the swing was unstable, someone shouted "Can't you let people SLEEP?!?!?" When they looked, they didn't see anyone sleeping, but actually gambling. They started laughing, then they walked back to Nikki's house.

On their way, Lilliane noticed that the candies Anne were holding were actually falling. Then they picked the candies from the ground. They reached Nikki's house and her sister was finished preparing. They left the house then, went back to meet up with Nikki's mom. They were on their road to Alabang then Nikki's cousin joined them.

They dropped, Nikki's mom and cousin off to a bazarre in Alabang. On their way there, they saw an All Girls School. They were amazed, though not surprised because they've heard things about the said school from their teacher.

After that, they went to ATC. They bought some tickets, 5 tickets. They would be sitting at the Left side, row M of the third Cinema. Since their scheduled time was still 5:45pm and they had lots of time to spare, the 4 girls decided to go to Timezone. They played, basketball, drum mania, guitar mania, dance. Lilliane failed all the games except for one. Basketball. She scored at least 29 points. She just laughed it out.

5:00pm, they left Timezone. Since they were exhausted, they bought some drinks at Juice Ave. Anne and Nikki bought the Mango drink while Lilliane offered Yuki to try the Freedom Park. At first they were both scared but they ended up buying the drink. They were asked to choose 4 fruits. Yuki chose apple, kiwi, mango and melon. Lilliane chose apple, kiwi, melon and banana. They drank the juice and it actually tasted nice.

They went to Nikki who bought some popcorn, nachos and drinks. Then they waited outside of cinema 3. The movie ended and the Nachos were also gone. They waited for the people to leave the cinema and they actually saw some schoolmates. Then after a while, they entered the cinema. After watching some trailers, they saw this trailer for the movie The Day the Earth Stood Still they actually thought about watching the movie.

Twilight started. Anne asked Lilliane so many questions. They here came the part at the cafeteria. When Bella first saw Edward Cullen. The 4 girls started screaming because of Robert Pattinson's hotness. "Uhmm.. Lil, make your voice a little lower. The guard's checking out on us. We might be sent out" Nikki told Lilliane. So she did.

They kept on screaming but they lowered their voices. They laughed, got thrilled, fell in love with the characters, the scenes then the movie ended. They stood up and they started walking fast since Nikki's mom is waiting. Anne didn't come with them. She came to Powerbooks to meet up with her mom. Lilliane, Yuki and Nikki kept on talking about the movie. "OMG, Robert Pattinson is so HOT. Especially a while ago, where he was wearing shades." Lilliane said.

"Yeah." Yuki replied. They rode the car but they were still talkign about the movie. They talked about the scenes from the book that weren't shown in the movie. It was disappointing but still nice. They loved Robert Pattinson. Well Lilliane did. They talked about the times that they screamed but the others didn't. The kissing scenes between Edward and Bella, probably the girls were crying. They talked about the people sitting behind them who screamed late, after the 4 girls started screaming that's when they would start. "The prom was so dreamy. " Lilliane said.

Then Nikki's mom joined them in tha car. She was frustrated for waiting. They dropped Nikki's mom home then Lilliane then Yuki.

Lilliane went online, then chatted with people. She really had a fun day. Her sister asked her about the movie "I was.. left breathless because of Robert Pattinson" was her reply. "I envy Kristen Stewart"

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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

♥ Just Another Day

It was Wednesday. Lilliane's first class was History.

"Okay class, I want you to write your names in a 1/8 crosswise." the class then obeyed.
It was actually for a graded recitation.

The teacher divided the class into half, according to their seating arrangement. Lilliane was in group B.

"Hey Yve, do you have an idea on what you're gonna make? For the demo I mean." Lilliane asked Yvette. and she replied no.

Upon hearing this, Chester asked Lilliane of she had a concept already. He suggested making a lamp.

Lilliane went to Chester to listen to his idea. The teacher called Terrence. The first name he got out of the box. Suddenly, Terrence turn finished and the teacher chose another paper. From group B now. He opened the rolled paper and read "Lilliane"

Lilliane stood up from her kneeling position and people were saying "DESTINY" and all. Some people even think that the teacher took her name in purpose.

She was able to answer the question, luckily. It was just a guess. Then their year level's counselor came. She was about to pull out some people for the interview. Lilliane was one of them.

Lilliane, Maryll, Sallie and Lyka went with Ms. Amme. They entered the Guidance Office and stayed at the Counseling room.

"So, we're here today for your interview." Started Ms. Amme.
"How is your High School life?" She asked the four girls.
Most or all of them answered that it was fun yet the subjects are hard or something alike.

"Any problems about your classmates?" Ms. Amme asked.
"Well.. Brian, blahblahblah." Lilliane and Maryll enumerated. They explained their reasons and all.

"What about your teachers?"
The time passed then it was time for the individual interview. Firs was Sallie, then Lyka, then Maryll last was Lilliane.

She shared a lot, feeling comfortable and able to trust Ms. Amme. Then some more problems.
"Ms. There's this person I know who told me that she's scared that maybe a friend of hers is talking badly of her behind her back. Someone told her that that friend of hers told them bad things about her. Comments and all. She's afraid to ask that friend if it's true but she's really worried. Cause just like me, she has her own issues about trust."

Lilliane narrated. Ms. Amme gave her an advice to be given to that friend. "Maybe you could tell that friend of yours to try observing her other friend for a while to know if that's true."

"But Ms. knowing that friend of hers, it's not impossible that she really backstabbed my friend." Then it was actually 9:05 am. An hour or so passed.

Time for T.L.E so they were dismissed from the guidance office and they went to the fourth floor. Lilliane thought that her turn for the test had passed but no. She made it. She didn't know if it's actually a relief or a bad thing. So it was her turn, then she tried it. She was laughing. Hyper like she usually is. She finished at least.

TLE ended and it was recess. Lilliane, Sloanne, Jaythe and Nikki went directly to the cafeteria. After buying their food, they stayed at the trellis. Lilliane heard the song Bleeding Love being played. It was Boyce Avenue's version then next was Apologize. Next was No Air also by Boyce Avenue. She remembered the Educational Trip. This song was in the playlist of Nikki's Mp3. The song she listened to together with Terrence. But that wasn't the song that touched her the most. It was IRIS. It played right after No Air. Iris reminded her about the dance during grade 6. She looked at Sloanne after realizing that it was being played. She knows that it also affects her.

Recess ended but it seemed like the longest recess she had. So many memories that she remembered and so many feelings she missed.

It was Science. They had a seatwork. Lilliane actually guessed most of her answers.

Next was Filipino. Lilliane was a reporter and so she prepared together with Lisa. When it was time for their report, they stayed in front of the class.
She can't help but notice, Terrence staying there in front of her partner.
She reached a line "hahaha" She can't actually laugh it out so, she just read it. People then laughed at her, she joined them. She really thought it was funny because her voice sounded like she was trying to laugh but she was just reading.
She also noticed Terrence smile or laugh.

After reading the text, Lilliane summarized the story. She used the word Love so many times.

Next was English. They passed their homework. Their own ending for Dead Stars. Lilliane ended it with a sad one. DEATH.

Next was Lunch. They bought fries except Sloanne who bought pizza. After eating, Lilliane asked Jaythe to come with her to return the evaluation form given by the guidance unit.

They did then, she came along when Jaythe went to their Computer Teacher Ms. Nancy. She chose a random computer then opened some files. After seeing the file name she remembered what Trisha told her. "Oh, Terrence used this computer before." It was actually Trisha's assigned computer that Terrence used in the second quarter.

Then she went to Jaythe. She played bookworm since she was doing nothing.
Then Jaythe finished. They went to the classroom. Lunch ended.

Next was Religion. Sir Demetri talked about the activity they performed the previous day. About their opinons and all. The values. Relating the values to different relationships.
Then he discussed about the third King. King Solomon.

Religion ended and it was Math time. During this day, Lilliane's section is the only one left in their floor.

They checked their assignments and had a SW. Then it was dismissal. Lilliane almost left when she remembered that she's a cleaner. So she cleaned. Then she left.

All in all. This was a really ordinary day. Nothing new.

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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

♥ What If..

Lilliane did the same her daily routine after waking up. Her bus arrived and she grabbed her book then rode her school bus.

She walked through the school hallway and then dropped her bag then began reading her book. No classmate of hers was staying there at that time-- as far as she knows. She wasn't wearing her glasses and everything was blurry for her. Then later on, Chester arrived "Hey Chester, why did you go offline last night? I was.. about to send you the scanned documents." asked Lilliane. "There was a problem with the Internet connection." explained Chester. "Oh, well.. were you able to answer the assignment then?" Lilliane asked again. "No" replied Chester.
Lilliane then offered her notes.

Era came then sat between them, then Lilliane started to notice that her other classmates were just nearby. Then Patrick came "You're not yet done reading that? C'mon, I could finish that in a day." He told Lilliane, bragging.

The bell rang, time for music. They studied the piano. The teacher taught them a song and asked them to practice for the practical test the next meeting. Lilliane's hands ached because of the big distance the keys had in her dummy keyboard. The class ended.

Next was English. Their teacher Sir Ferdinand came and asked for their homeworks. He read some compositions then they discussed the short story "The Dead Stars"

The story is about a guy who was engaged yet fell in love with another woman. The woman felt the same for him, though he chose his fiancee for his image's sake. 4 years passed and he saw Julia-- the woman he fell for. He felt sad after seeing her. She was different, not the same woman he met.

"Class, what do you think he felt living those four years with Esperanza and not Julia?" asked Sir Ferdinand.
"Miserable" a student answered.
"What do you think is the question he kept on asking himself in those four year?" followed up the teacher.
"What if-" Lilliane answered, cut off-mid sentence.
"Correct"

Sir Ferdinand asked them to write their own what ifs. Specifically 3.

Lilliane's what ifs..
1.) What if I didn't trust HER?
2.) What if I was an only child?
3.) ___________________??

The third is something she wanted to keep, though in the end, she shared it with Jaythe and Taylor. They were both shocked reading her confession. The thing that made Lilliane cry was Andrea's what if. They comforted her but when the teacher asked her Lilliane saw a tear fall from her eye.

What if, is a question that Lilliane says or thinks about everyday. Regret causes this question to be asked. Envy as well. When people makes a wrong decision and regrets that, they tend to be jealous of the people they see. The people who are happy. They ask themselves "What if I didn't do this or that, would I be happy just like that person?" That is for things people do. What about loving people? We usually ask "What if I chose him/ her over him/ her?", "What if I never let go of him/ her?", "What if I didn't hurt him/ her?"

Pain. That causes us to regret things. When people feel pain, we would always want to find a way out, an escape. Pain is part of our lives, that's true but who would want to suffer? No one. Some people get through it but some people don't. Some breaks down and give up in life, they try killing themselves thinking that when they die they won't feel the pain anymore. One pain, one instant escape. No wonder there are many EMO people. The suicidal thing. I guess, they do that to forget things, their problems and all, because once they see the blood they won't mind anything else besides the pain or just the red liquid dripping from their wrist. Maybe, they do that to escape the pressure, the world that is filled with suffering waiting for them. That's simply it, an ESCAPE. Sure people could turn to their friends but besides sharing your problem what could they actually do? Or what if you don't have a friend to turn to at that moment when you can't bear the pain anymore? When you're alone, who would be there to catch you from your fall? During that time of weakness?

What if, how many times do we say or even think about it in a day? Often. But how many times do we get to have the chance to know the answer to that question? Rarely. We don't usually have second chances in life, but if we do, treasure it. Make the most out of it. We can't change what we've done but we could at least do something new to change the past. Something good to change the bad. Something happy to change the sad past. Live that second chance to not regret it in the future.

Lilliane has her own regrets, trusting a person. Being weak and more. She had experienced gaining second chances, she couldn't actually say that she's lived it very well but she was happy. It's true she experienced pain in between that time of happiness but people were there to catch her. She has regrets, about friends, family, school and more.

Friends: "What if this group didn't fall apart? What if I stayed being best friends with Taylor when I was in grade 5? What if I didn't experience the issue with Regina, would I be with Sloanne? Being with her is so much better than being with Regina but I was also happy before. Would I be as happy as I am with the times I spent with Sloanne if I was still with Regina? "

Family: "What if I was an only child? Would I envy my sisters? Would I still be the one to blame? What if I was spending my childhood with my parents? What if they never went away? What if my age wasn't that far from my sisters'? Would they understand me better? Would my sisters and I get along better?"

School: "What if I studied harder, would my parents be happy if I get an honor? Would they think it's enough or would they ask for more?"

Lilliane's head was filled with what ifs during the subject.

It was recess. Lilliane ate with Sloanne and talked about Sloanne's frustrations. Nate came to their table and then he talked to Lilliane about the anniversary.

Recess ended, it was Science. They studied conversions then they had an activity. Then it was Math time. They studied factoring. They checked the homework. Then it was Lunch.

Lilliane ate with Sloanne, Nikki, Jaythe and Laura, Trisha, Anne joined as well. It was fun at least having more people. They went to the Library since Lilliane needed to return something. Then it ended with them joining a contest. Then they went to the cafeteria. Lilliane and the others bought fries except Laura. They chatted then they changed locations. Lilliane talked to Trisha about her worries. Then Lunch ended.

It was still Math time, they continued their topic about Factoring then they had homeworks.

Next was Religion. Sir Demetri asked them to have a count-off. Lilliane had 5 so she was part of group 5. She was the one assigned to use the blindfold. She was partnered with Lisa. Lisa directed her through the venue her hands got dirty trying to find the puzzle pieces. Lisa told Lilliane "By the way, the one you bumped into a while ago when you asked who's this.. was Terrence." They were the first pair to finish but Sloanne and Anne were the last to finish. The truth is they didn't finish. One puzzle piece was missing.

The whole class searched for it but the teacher got mad or irritated or disappointed or frustrated about it. The class finished but the puzzle piece was still missing. Chester asked their next teacher to be excuse to look for it. They were able to find it though they had a hard time. The class was relieved, they couldn't let another teacher give up or get mad at them.

The class finished. Lilliane was about to pay for the documentation when she noticed that Terrence was gone. She went out of the room and called "Terrence!" he looked back at her then "Here's the payment for Math" he opened his palm and Lilliane gave the money to him. She didn't actually want to let go of the money so that he wouldn't leave. But she had to. She turned back and so did he but she looked back at him, watched him go.

Lilliane and the others left as well. Then Lilliane came to her school bus. Then went home.

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Monday, November 24, 2008

♥ Start of the Countdown

The sun was almost rising when Lilliane woke up. Her sister was lying beside her. She got off the bed and went to the bathroom. After taking a bath, she got dressed up-- wearing her p.e. uniform. Then she went downstairs, their dog welcoming her.

Her bus arrived and, she took her book. The bus reached their school and she got off. She walked towards the meeting area of her section together with a second year student.


She sat down and started reading, though her classmates were laughing. Then Lilliane laughed because of Keeno then he said "Why are you laughing? You have no right to laugh." It was a joke then she just let it pass.

Later on, Era came and they talked about the book she was reading. "You like Jacob?" Era asked, "No, I love Edward"
"Cullen." finished Era, Lilliane looked back and saw Edward, their classmate, just arrived. Lilliane then faced front and chuckled. 'Thank God, Era finished that' Lilliane thought then just smiled.

Later on, Sloanne came ande showed her something. "Why? Parents?" Lilliane asked immediately, worried, yet she knew the reason. "80% chance I'm gonna leave" Sloanne answered her question. "What's their problem?" Lilliane followed up. "My grades aren't high enough." Sloanne said. "Gaaaa! Why is it that they always look for reasons just to send you away?" Lilliane now said, feeling frustrated.


The bell rang, time for the Assembly. Lilliane took her bag and went to her section's line. The assembly finished and they went up to their classroom. It was T.L.E and they had a quiz. Next they went to the Allied Arts Lab. Lilliane came to Chester "Hey Chester, well, December 5 is near, and.. I was thinking, do you want to celebrate?" She asked. Chester, after hearing this, got her idea and said yes. Then they started talking about it "We're gonna order two boxes of pizzas. So we need to save up at least.. 290 pesos each." Chester said. And so, the countdown has begun for December 5, 2008.


The teacher was discussing and demonstrating things but, the truth is, Lilliane and her friends weren't listening. Until the teacher said "Practical test" They didn't know what to do. Lilliane asked Chester to show her how and he did. Then luckily, the period ended and "Class, for those who haven't done the practical test, you would be given the time on wednesday." Their teacher said.

They had their recess, Lilliane spent it with Sloanne, Nikki and Jaythe. Then they came back to the classroom for Filipino. They studied the book. Lilliane suddenly felt sick and went to the clinic to take some medicine --for headache. She came back, then next was Integrated Science. Sir John still discussed the Notation. She wasn't able to get it, because before, she was busy writing notes about their past lessons. At least, she finally got it in the end.

The class ended and it was time for English. Sir Rafael discussed about the movie Amadeus. Lilliane found this discussion really interesting. In the end, they were given an assignment-- a composition-- whether they find theirselves closer to Mozart's attitude or Salieri's.

It was Lunch, she spent it with the same people. She ate french fries, well, they all did. Then they bought some ice cream. Then, they passed by the Teacher's Faculty Center. Lilliane, Sloanne and Jaythe teased Nikki since Sir Tony was there. He wouldn't let her pass then he told the three girls "Leave her" They followed and they went to the classroom. Lilliane wrote the reminder on the board.

"CLASS, PAY 25 PESOS TO TERRENCE FOR THE MATH DOCUMENTATION. DEADLINE TOM."

Then she got some teasing from Anne, Laura, Keeno and even Matthew.

Before the lunch time ended, they were able to make a bet with Nikki. "Hold hands with Sir Tony for 10 minutes." Lilliane hopes that Nikki would really go through with the bet. She thinks that it would be really interesting.

Next was Math time. They studied Factoring but then, "Sir, Terrence" Keeno said. Lilliane looked at Terrence and "Sir 'nahigad' siya" Then Terrence neck was pinkish/ reddish in color. Then he went to the clinic. The class then took a seatwork. Terrence returned, Lilliane wanted to ask if he's okay but she couldn't so she just concentrated on her exam.

Math ended and it was P.E. Lilliane, Nikki, Sloanne mostly talked about the movie they're-- hopefully-- going to watch. The three girls were so excited.

P.E. ended and Lilliane took her bag then went to her school bus. She got home and went online. It was the end of another week's start.

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A Twist In My Story.


There are times when I dream he's holding my hand, whispering sweet words in my ear and that he's loving me. But while I’m here dreaming, he's with someone else making my dreams. Her reality. This is my story, filled with emotions. Twists come along the path I take, the path I hope that reaches him.

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I apologize for the typos you would find here in my blog.If, at times you would find offensive comments, or things in my posts.If you tend to hate me because of this blog, I'm sorry. But hey, I can't please everyone right?If you think my blog is boring, you are free to leave.

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