A Twist in My Story

Weekends..

2008-12-07T04:39:00.000-08:00

"Lilliane! wake up, it's already 3pm." Katie, her sister said.

Lilliane opened her eyes, she had a hard time. The light blinded her eyes and she felt somehow dizzy. Her body somehow ached, maybe because of staying in bed for 12 hours.

She went downstairs and called her maid. "Manang, kakain na ako.." Then her maid prepared her food. Her sister dressed up and went out of their house.

Lilliane stayed there and watched the television. Ate some chocolates yet again. Then suddenly, the television turned off. There was no electricity.
Lilliane thought about the changes that occured during her first year in High School.

She had her teachers as her friends as well. She met different kinds of people in her class. Had new friends. New experiences and so much more pressure.

Lilliane realized that her weekends used to be boring and all. But now, she usually spends it with school activities.

She remembered going to Bea's house for the banderitas.

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Right after making some banderitas at Bea's house they didn't make much progress so Lilliane and Nikki decided to go to Chassy's house to make some more because they had a deadline. So they did. Lilliane tried to contact her sister first but she wasn't able to. No one answered the phone. But since Lilliane wanted to help, she just went to Chassy's house.

After arriving at Chassy's house, they saw her sister, brother, mother and father. Chassy, ordered some pizza and they started to make the banderitas. It was around 8pm when Nikki and Lilliane decided to come home.

They rode the same tricycle and talked about different things. Then while passing at the road, Nikki suddenly grabbed Lilliane's hand then entered a store. Lilliane became confused.

After entering the store she asked "Nikki, what's wrong?" Nikki simply replied "The guy's trying to grab your bag." Lilliane became worried but relieved since they were both safe. Nikki bought sme Soya drink. They rode another tricycle but when Nikki tried the drink, she threw it out. "Ugh" Nikki complained. Then Lilliane arrived at their house."Why'd you decide to go home?" her sister asked sarcastically. But she ignored it.

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Lilliane remembered some more experiences like when they went to Chassy's house and practice for their Novelty dance, also to make some props.

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It was a Saturday Morning. Lilliane met up with Yvette and the others to go to Chassy's house. After arriving, Lilliane helped with making Laura's costume. Sloanne had this material which is a leaf or a feather. Marky played with it and placed it on his hair. Lilliane and the others stared teasing Marky, calling him a member of the MoymoyPalaboy group.

Lilliane then helped with the props. Some more classmates came like Matthew and Chester their president. After making the props, they talked about their booth.

They decided on the game Agregates. The game's rules and regulations are: There would be different gangs. Also different spots. Once certain people step on those spots or marks, they would be brought by the gang's members to the booth. They then, would be asked a question, if they answer it correctly, they would be free and they would receive a prize. If they don't they need to pay 20 pesos.

Chester started painting the signs' stands. Then it was time for some Lunch.

Chassy's parents provided them with food. They lined up, then got some food. They teased Chassy and Charlie. Charlie, since Chassy liked him. He also looked like he felt at home, he even joined the line even though the only people there were chassy's family members. They laughed and all.

After eating, they went back to work. Some time passed and Keeno and the others started practicing the dance. Lilliane shared props with Terrence. This was nothing out of the ordinary. Ever since the Novelty practice started and they needed props.

Lilliane heard Nikki talking about Matthew being mad at her. It was time to go home. Matthew was still, silent. Nikki talked to him and knew that he's not mad at her but was only worried since he didn't know how to go home. They cleaned the mess up. Then took some props home. Yvetter brought the stands painted with black.

Lilliane, Sloanne, Nikki, Nica, Yvette, and Matthew then went home together. They bid their goodbyes to their classmates and started walking. They rode a tricycle.

After some seconds, like 10 maybe the driver asked. "Pede hanggang sa Shell na lang? Hindi ako pede hanggang Casimiro eh" They all laughed then left the tricycle.

They rode another tricycle. You might wonder how six people would fit one tricycle but they found a way. Sloanne and Yvette sat at the back seat. Lilliane and Nikki sat inside the tricycle. Matthew at the baby-sit. Nica, sat at the remaining space. The floor of the vehicle. Lilliane laughed at Matthew since he kept on hiding behind Nica everytime people would look. Yes, a lot of people looked at them. Probably wondering why they ddn't get two tricycles.

After reaching Casimiro, they saw Yvette. Yvette's shirt was full of black paint. She actually looked like a street child. They all laughed then entered a store. 7-11.

They all got one Slurpee and went to the cashier. Yvette brought her money out. The cashier suddenly chuckled. "Ei Yvette, the cashier's laughing at you. You look like a street child. " Lilliane pointed at Yvette then they started laughing. The ironic thing is, Yvette paid for the slurpees.

They left the store then rode a tricycle. They asked the tricycle driver to drop them off in front of their school. Lilliane, Matthew and Nikki went with Nica. Nica's dad dropped Lilliane off to her house.

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One time, they also went to school for their practice. They practiced at the bridge. Lilliane was surprised after seeing how energetic her partner is. Terrence. He wasn't usually energetic with dancing but he was that day. Like he never got tired. They also made their booth.

Lilliane took some cds from her house to use for the booth. She rode a tricycle together with maybe 5 other people. Then went back to their school.

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One Saturday they went to Philam park to practice their dance in History

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They didn't actually practice, since they just played. Lilliane played Tekken. Keeno and the others played Volleyball. They also ate lunch at Mcdonalds. Lilliane got some fries and some Latte. They went back to their school then played Volleyball again.

They saw the security guard riding a bike and borrowed it. Lilliane and Sloanne didn't know how to ride a bike so the others tried teaching them.

They saw other teachers as well.

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Another time, they went to PhilAm Park to practice their Religion contest.

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Another Saturday morning. Lilliane woke up late and when she arrived at their school. Her classmates have left her. She texted Yvette for the directions on how to go to the park. She did then she saw her classmates, playing. At the playground. She joined them, by using the swing. A little while and they went to some store to buy drinks or food. Lilliane and Sloanne went for a walk. They talked about Sloanne and Nate's relationship. It was because of a girl named Celine.

Celine, has been part of their group. The group was broken. It was torn apart. People went their seperate ways.

They tried fixing that friendship, little by little. In then end, nothing. They still had new sets of friends. Hang out with new people during lunch and recess.

Celine, actually is somehow childish. You wouldn't think of her badly at once. She's all friendly like, with her squeaky voice. Walks like a child too. She sometimes annoys Lilliane and Sloanne for some reason they don't know.

They walked and even saw some of the other section's students. They went back to their classmates.

Chester, their president came. Trisha as well. Then Era. The three of them came from some Math training.

They started practicing. Lilliane brought the manila paper containing the song lyrics out. Then they posted it somewhere. They started practicing, Anne played the flute, Chester, Patrick and Charlie with the guitar.

The dancers, listened to them and practiced. It was 12 pm. They asked about eating. Patrick commented. "You're too fat Lilliane" Lilliane, was really hurt. "Kelangan bang ipamukha?" was what she thought. The others came first to McDo. Lilliane joined Maryll, Terrence, Anne and Julie. They called a tricycle.

Anne and Julie stayed at the back. Lilliane, Maryll and Terrence were left to stay inside the tricycle. Maryll sat down immediately. "I want Terrence to sit beside me!!" Maryll whined. Lilliane didn't want to sit at te baby-sit so she remained outside. Suddenly it started to rain. Still, Lilliane didn't sit down.

Terrence, changed his position. He stayed at the baby-sit. Lilliane sat down beside Maryll. Lilliane knew Maryll really liked to sit beside Terrence. She even heard her complaining and all. It started to rain hard. They got off the vehicle and stayed under some roof. "Game, let's run ok?" someone said. Lilliane was game for this. She liked running under the rain. She would walk if she was allowed to.

She did run, just to find out the others haven't. She laughed. They all entered the restaurant.
They went to the counter and ordered some food. Lilliane, after getting her order went to Yvette and said "Hey Yvette, I'll stay behind you 'kay?" Yvette just nodded her head.

Lilliane sat down and then, the next thing she knew, Terrence was beside her. Lilliane didn't finish her food. They left. They rode the tricycle back to PhilAm.

They saw the, manila papers, ruined. They then transferred to the court. After a little while, some boys appeared then came some guys. They evacuated since the guys were.. Drug addicts or something. There was a problem. Chester, Charlie and Patrick had a 'mini-fight'. They left one by one. Lilliane went with the other. They came back to their school and played Volleyball.

Then Keeno got mad at Lilliane. Maybe it was a joke. Lilliane stayed in one place and took some time to think. Then Patrick saw her and stayed with her. Lilliane was crying. Not because of Keeno but because of her FAMILY.

She wasn't close to her parents. Her parents miss out on a lot of important ocassions. Her sister says bad words or tells her bad words.

She then had this sharing time with Patrick. Nikki joined them. The truth is, their family problems were worse than Lilliane's. They stayed 'til 6:30pm.

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Lilliane experienced a lot of changes. Especially during weekends. It's good to think back especially when she had nothing to do at home.

One day parent or 10 month parent?

2008-12-06T09:29:00.000-08:00

It was 10pm. December 5. Lilliane woke up and asked her sister "Are you done yet?" then she went downstairs. Then took some glass of water. Then she went upstairs again. "Lilliane, just use the computer tomorrow." Lilliane at first disagreed but after finishing Breakign Dawn she agreed and then became hyper. She chatted with her sister and more revelations came. "Who's the guy you have a crush on?" Asked her sister. She had no choice but say "Terrence" or else her sister would tell their parents. They talked about the movie Twilight, then Lilliane showed her a video in Youtube. About a girl named Elle who dies in the age of 14 because of Anorexia. Then Lilliane started talking about how fat she is but her sister told her not to be Anorexic and all.

Then it was 1am. She decided to sleep. The next day, she woke up. She opened her room's door and asked her maid "What time is it?" "12pm " answered her maid. Then she started panicing. She took a bath and wore a shirt and a pair of skinny jeans. Then she went to her sister's room and asked for money. Then she went downstairs, wore her socks and her chucks.

Then she grabbed some Cadbury chocolates for her breakfast/ lunch then left. She rode a tricycle and went to her school. Then she started looking for Keeno and Nikki. She wandered around the school. Seeing happy families everywhere. She felt envious but later on, she saw Isaac. "hey! do you know where Nikki and Keeno are?" Lilliane asked him. Then they searched for the two people.

They went to the band room and finally Lilliane saw them plus they were with Sloanne. Then they went to the Badminton Court. Keeno played badminton with Isaac for a short while but then Isaac's trainers arrived so Lilliane, Sloanne, Keeno and Nikki went to Sir Demetri. They chatted with him. Sir Tony showed up wearing his backpack. His work's over so it's time for him to go home. He grabbed Nikki's hand and asked her to walk with him up to the school gate. Nikki tried dragging Lilliane along but Keeno helped her get Nikki's hands off. A littile while and Nikki showed up again, now with a different person. Isaac.

Then they went to the gymnasium, Lilliane saw a mat and she decided to sit down. Keeno played with some of the things there and Sloanne excercised. Nikki was obviously sad. Probably because of Sir Tony. Then a janitor came so they all went to the stage and sat down. Then after some time, they jumped from the stage then walked to the Teacher's Faculty again. Keeno and Nikki wanted to play Volleyball so they borrwed a ball. A soccer ball. Keeno gave his ID to their P.E. teacher.

Since the soccer ball wouldn't be good as an alternative for a volley ball, they played soccer. Everytime Nikki throws the ball Lilliane would jump and then block the ball with her leg then start kicking it towards the net. It hurts yet it was fun. She remembered the times her eldest sister Marie used to play with her. Marie, during her college days, played in her university's Soccer team. So she saw her sister practice at home.

Lilliane scored at least 2 or 3 goals. They decided on playing human goal. Then they stopped. Lilliane laughed and laughed. She was really happy. Then they went to the teacher's faculty. They played truth or dare. Usually, it would be Sloanne who'd have to answer so many questions also Nikki.

After som time,Keeno wanted to play badminton, so they invited Sir Demetri to come the Badminton Court.They waited for the training to finish and then Keeno and Nikki played Badminton with Isaac and Rafael.

Lilliane and Sloanne sat down at the tables. "Hi Sir Demetri!" Keeno greeted. Sir Demetri came "Lilliane, your sister's there. " Lilliane just smiled, she knew that Sir Demetri was talking about Keira Greene. Then Sir Demetri went to the faculty again to fix some work or things probably but went back to them after a while.They chatted. Sir Demetri, Lilliane , Sloanne and Nikki. While Keeno played badminton with the others.

It was 4:30 pm. Sir Demetri had to leave. Nikki invited Lilliane to play and she did. After playing, Keeno made different jokes. He even became a model. Since it was getting late, they decided to go home.

They went out of the school and bought some drinks and food. They rode a tricycle. Lilliane after reaching home, opened the laptop and went online. She saw Terrence, Sloanne and other people. She chatted with him. Her sister Katie arrived from the Gym.

She asked Lilliane if she wanted to go out. She said yes. She bonded with her sister. She had fun, true. She doesn't always get the chance to bond with her sister. Which is, actually the only family member staying with her.

They rode the tricycle. Bought some stuff and food. They walked back home. She told her different stories.
"Uhmm.. the truth is, a while ago. I felt envious of the families playing BINGO, Basketball and more activities."
"I wonder, what would happen with our Christmas Party?" After that, they became silent.
Lilliane felt the cold wind and heard it. The street was silent as well.

They passed by a Veterinary Clinic and Lilliane spoke. She broke the silence between them. "I remember.. It was the same. Night time. I walked from the veterinary clinic, crying. After seeing Sam." her sister nodded but remained quiet.

Right after reaching home, she went to her room. Then she started using the computer again. She found out that Keira Hamilton IM-ed her.

keira_greene_15 has sent you a message
KeiraGreene: hi Lilliane
KeiraGreene: are you busy?
KeiraGreene: Lilliane?

Lilliane actually forgot to change her stat. She placed Available though she was actually out. The truth is, she was friends with Keira. They've shared secrets and laughed together. They were close. No one knew this as far as Lilliane knows.

Lilliane IM-ed Sir Demetri.

LSmith: Hi Sir *smiling emoticon*
Demetri_24: Hey *smiling emoticon*
LSmith: Sir were you Keeno, Nikki and Sloanne's one day father?
LSmith: Or everyone who went today?
Demetri_24: I'm your 10 month parent *smiling emoticon*

It was true. Sir Demetri and all their other teachers have been their parents from the start. They cared for their batch. At times they do get mad, but that's because they care. What they say is true. The more you hate the more you love. People who hate us loves us. Because if they don't they would simply ignore us and not mind those bad things they see in us.

Lilliane was thankful to Sir Demetri and their other teachers. The truth is, she loved this part of High School. Their teachers get to be their friends as well. They could share their secrets and problems.

Lilliane also continued chatting with Keira. Lilliane had so much fun chatting with her that she didn't realize it was nearly 1am. She allowed Keira to read her blog and they chatted still. They remained that way until 3am. Keira had to leave. She might get scolded by her parents if she didn't.

Lilliane, knowing that there's no one left she could chat with. Decided to log out and sleep.

One Year of Moving On

2008-12-06T02:35:00.000-08:00

Lilliane woke up, then opened the curtain. The sky was dark, the clouds showed signs of rain that would soon pour down. She took a bath, even though the water was ice-cold. Then she dressed up, wearing her regular uniform. She got a black jacket and started going down the staircase.

Her maid didn't prepare anything for her to eat. Lilliane said "Good. At least it wouldn't be wasted" then her bus arrived, just as expected.

Her school bus waited in front of her house. The bus conductor, stood infront of their gate holding an umbrella. Lilliane walked towards the gate and let the rain pour down her hair. It was fine, her hair wasn't dry anyway.

Lilliane entered the school bus and just like the other days, students from a different school were there too. She was still feeling cold but tried to ignore it. Suddenly, Lilliane remembered her eyeglasses. So she asked the bus to go back to her house.

After getting her eyeglasses, the bus dropped the other students to their school. Then Lilliane transferred. She opened the window and felt the air. It was cold and it felt nice. She remembered, a year ago, December 5, started the same happy way. She wondered how it would turn out.

Her bus entered the school grounds. She walked with her second year friend but she wsn't wearing her jacket. It still felt cold, she smiled, talked with that second year and all. She then went to her classroom. Students in their school were allowed to go directly to their classrooms everytime it was raining.

She went to her place and drpped her things. Then she, sat down. She rested, and tried to sleep.
Her other classmates were there, laughing and all.

Time passed. They had a mass. She sat between two guys she doesn't know. Then she listened carefully to the priest. She could relate so she listened and all.

The mass ended. They went back to class. English time. They studied. Then recess. She didn't eat. She had to save up for the upcoming celebration. Then recess ended. Math time.

It was fun. The teacher, though, teased Sloanne. Math ended. It was Science time. They studied Chemistry. Then It was Filipino time. They studied the story Ibong Adarna. It was boring, Lilliane felt like sleeping, the truth is, she felt sick. Then Lunch time. They stayed at the Trellis. Chester approached her "Hey Lilliane, I need the money now." "Uhmm, I only have, 230 pesos or so." "Uhmm. we still lack 70 pesos." "Oh, I'll just borrow money from the class funds." "Ok." Then Lilliane gave the money to Chester.

Later on, Jaythe told her that she's gonna pay Terrence her remaining balance. Then "Oh, I almost forgot. I need to borrow money." Lilliane said. Instead of borrowing from Terrence she decided on asking Jaythe then, she would just pay the 70 pesos to Terrence the next school day. Jaythe agreed but still went to Terrence to give him the 100 pesos.

After a little while, Keeno called Lilliane. "Lilliane!" Then asked her to sit beside Terrence but she didn't. She just informed him about the money she borrowed. He took one glance of her and that's it. He remained silent and only nodded. Keeno still teased them, Nikki joined as well.

Nikki, Sloanne, Jaythe and Lilliane left Keeno's group and walked to the classroom. Then History class. Every Friday, they would have 2 hours of History. Lilliane used to LOVE history. That changed, after entering High School. For the first hour, they had their long quiz. The next hours, the class was totally chaotic. They didn't listen to the teacher, well they didn't know the teacher was giving lessons and all. Then the class ended.

Lilliane stayed with Sloanne and Nikki. Chester went to her, and told her that they would be staying at the bridge. They waited for the Pizzas but after a while, no pizza came. Chester called the restaurant to follow up the order. He was informed that the restaurant was waiting for some kind of confirmation so they didn't make the pizzas. Now, instead of the 4:15 pm arrival , it was changed into 5:15pm. "Exactly an hour after the expected arrival." Chester told the others. Lilliane rolled her eyes, then left the guys. She felt, Out of place there. Then she joined Nikki and the others, they played volleyball.

After a while, she saw, Sloanne sitting alone. She came to her and asked "Have you talked with Nate yet?" "No" was her reply. Nikki sat down beside Lilliane and told her, "Hey Lil. A while ago.. uhmm.. Laura asked me, 'Nikki, what's Sloanne and Lilliane doing there?' then I told her that you were waiting for the pizzas cause it's your celebration day. Then she said. 'Ahh we were the ones who told the teachers that they were playing at a computer shop.'"

Lilliane, turned her head towards Laura who was near them. She narrowed her eyes "So, she's admitting that she did that? Before they denied it and now.." Lilliane wasn't able to finish. She felt, annoyed.

Later on, Devin approached Lilliane. They went to the bridge but plans changed and they went to the chapel. They ate there. Devin started speaking "The firsr slice goes to the most innocent member of our group Angel's Cry? Oh wait.. Angel's kiss." Then he allowed Lilliane to have a slice. Then next was "2nd slice goes to, death wish." then "mighty wizard" then "bloody angel" then "suicide squad" then "strike raven" then last was their leader, Devin. Fiona wasn't able to join them. But they were still 7 there. A classmate of theirs came too. They talked about their past. Funny moments and instead of using drinks to cheers, they used pizzas.

Chester and Joe were the first people who left. For the others, they went to the teachers and gave away pizzas. They gave the last piece to Sir Miggy. He was the one who named them DK7.

Then the others left, Lilliane joined Nikki. They went to the comfort room. On their way, they saw Keira Greene. A Second year student. She said hi to Lilliane but even though they chat and Lilliane feels comfortable doing that. She still felt shy, like she wanted to run. She then said hi as well. Nikki and Lilliane continued walking.

Lilliane , after going to the comfort room returned with Nikki. Then "Nikki!" someone called out to her. Someone from the Teacher's faculty call out. Nikki knew who called her but pretended that it was Sir Demetri. The truth is, Sir Tony was the one who called her. "Why is it that when Sir Demetri calls you you would come to him and even put your arms on his shoulder?" Sir Tony asked. Then Nikki got more nervous then went to Sir Tony. Lilliane kept on laughing at the same time she thought of it as romantic. She saw Keira again. But still teased Nikki to Sir Tony.

She went with Sloanne and Keeno. They talked and stayed til 7pm. Then Nikki, Keeno and Lilliane rode the same tricycle. Then Lilliane felt happy after going home. She thinks Keeno's okay with her. She hopes she's right.

In her room. She sat down and thought "One year of moving on. *sigh*"
"I shed too many tears before but now I'm laughing at it. I guess, sometimes we just have to Accept. Let go. Move on. I saw my real friends through that experience and I'm stronger now. It's true everything happens for a reason. That there's a reason why people don't make it in our present. I'm happier now." Then she smiled. And as always, chatted with Terrence and her other friends.

Breathless

2008-11-29T05:22:00.000-08:00

"Take my hand, Take my life, Take take take take take take it away" Lilliane's alarm went on. Her aunt, Aunt Rebecca. She took the cellphone and turned the alarm off.

She stood up, feeling enthusiastic and opened the laptop. Later on, Nikki came. Lilliane was shock cause they never discussed anything about Nikki picking her up. She took a bath then she got dressed up. She was wearing a blue tube top, then a bolero. Next skinny jeans. She was about to wear some shoes with heels though she changed her plans after Nikki warned her that they would be walking non-stop. So she ended up wearing her flats.

They rode the tricycle to go to their school. They saw Maryll and Trisha. Then Anne, who just finished going to her club meeting. Anne told Nikki that Yuki would be joining them and Nikki approved.

Anne's parents came and offered them a ride on their way to Nikki's house. Lilliane was the first to enter, she greeted Anne's dad "Good afternoon" and they all sat beside her.

"Anne, I told Lilliane, 'kiss', I thought she was you." Anne's dad said then started laughing.

They arrived at Nikki's house. She brought her dog out and Anne started panicing. She was actually afraid of the dog. Then Lilliane played with the dog. She washed her hands then they ate lunch.

After eating, Nikki offered to go to the store since she knew that Lilliane needed to buy something. So they did, they bought so many things. Well, candies. All sorts of candies. Lilliane wrote her cell number to buy some load. "Hey Lil, what a big handwriting." Anne commented. The four girls started laughing. Her handwriting, actually was so small compared to the others.

They started walking back to Nikki's house. They stopped after seeing a park. They went to the swing. Anne pushed the swing Lilliane was using. Then, Yuki with Nikki. While they were panicing because the swing was unstable, someone shouted "Can't you let people SLEEP?!?!?" When they looked, they didn't see anyone sleeping, but actually gambling. They started laughing, then they walked back to Nikki's house.

On their way, Lilliane noticed that the candies Anne were holding were actually falling. Then they picked the candies from the ground. They reached Nikki's house and her sister was finished preparing. They left the house then, went back to meet up with Nikki's mom. They were on their road to Alabang then Nikki's cousin joined them.

They dropped, Nikki's mom and cousin off to a bazarre in Alabang. On their way there, they saw an All Girls School. They were amazed, though not surprised because they've heard things about the said school from their teacher.

After that, they went to ATC. They bought some tickets, 5 tickets. They would be sitting at the Left side, row M of the third Cinema. Since their scheduled time was still 5:45pm and they had lots of time to spare, the 4 girls decided to go to Timezone. They played, basketball, drum mania, guitar mania, dance. Lilliane failed all the games except for one. Basketball. She scored at least 29 points. She just laughed it out.

5:00pm, they left Timezone. Since they were exhausted, they bought some drinks at Juice Ave. Anne and Nikki bought the Mango drink while Lilliane offered Yuki to try the Freedom Park. At first they were both scared but they ended up buying the drink. They were asked to choose 4 fruits. Yuki chose apple, kiwi, mango and melon. Lilliane chose apple, kiwi, melon and banana. They drank the juice and it actually tasted nice.

They went to Nikki who bought some popcorn, nachos and drinks. Then they waited outside of cinema 3. The movie ended and the Nachos were also gone. They waited for the people to leave the cinema and they actually saw some schoolmates. Then after a while, they entered the cinema. After watching some trailers, they saw this trailer for the movie The Day the Earth Stood Still they actually thought about watching the movie.

Twilight started. Anne asked Lilliane so many questions. They here came the part at the cafeteria. When Bella first saw Edward Cullen. The 4 girls started screaming because of Robert Pattinson's hotness. "Uhmm.. Lil, make your voice a little lower. The guard's checking out on us. We might be sent out" Nikki told Lilliane. So she did.

They kept on screaming but they lowered their voices. They laughed, got thrilled, fell in love with the characters, the scenes then the movie ended. They stood up and they started walking fast since Nikki's mom is waiting. Anne didn't come with them. She came to Powerbooks to meet up with her mom. Lilliane, Yuki and Nikki kept on talking about the movie. "OMG, Robert Pattinson is so HOT. Especially a while ago, where he was wearing shades." Lilliane said.

"Yeah." Yuki replied. They rode the car but they were still talkign about the movie. They talked about the scenes from the book that weren't shown in the movie. It was disappointing but still nice. They loved Robert Pattinson. Well Lilliane did. They talked about the times that they screamed but the others didn't. The kissing scenes between Edward and Bella, probably the girls were crying. They talked about the people sitting behind them who screamed late, after the 4 girls started screaming that's when they would start. "The prom was so dreamy. " Lilliane said.

Then Nikki's mom joined them in tha car. She was frustrated for waiting. They dropped Nikki's mom home then Lilliane then Yuki.

Lilliane went online, then chatted with people. She really had a fun day. Her sister asked her about the movie "I was.. left breathless because of Robert Pattinson" was her reply. "I envy Kristen Stewart"

Just Another Day

2008-11-26T02:43:00.000-08:00

It was Wednesday. Lilliane's first class was History.

"Okay class, I want you to write your names in a 1/8 crosswise." the class then obeyed.
It was actually for a graded recitation.

The teacher divided the class into half, according to their seating arrangement. Lilliane was in group B.

"Hey Yve, do you have an idea on what you're gonna make? For the demo I mean." Lilliane asked Yvette. and she replied no.

Upon hearing this, Chester asked Lilliane of she had a concept already. He suggested making a lamp.

Lilliane went to Chester to listen to his idea. The teacher called Terrence. The first name he got out of the box. Suddenly, Terrence turn finished and the teacher chose another paper. From group B now. He opened the rolled paper and read "Lilliane"

Lilliane stood up from her kneeling position and people were saying "DESTINY" and all. Some people even think that the teacher took her name in purpose.

She was able to answer the question, luckily. It was just a guess. Then their year level's counselor came. She was about to pull out some people for the interview. Lilliane was one of them.

Lilliane, Maryll, Sallie and Lyka went with Ms. Amme. They entered the Guidance Office and stayed at the Counseling room.

"So, we're here today for your interview." Started Ms. Amme.
"How is your High School life?" She asked the four girls.
Most or all of them answered that it was fun yet the subjects are hard or something alike.

"Any problems about your classmates?" Ms. Amme asked.
"Well.. Brian, blahblahblah." Lilliane and Maryll enumerated. They explained their reasons and all.

"What about your teachers?"
The time passed then it was time for the individual interview. Firs was Sallie, then Lyka, then Maryll last was Lilliane.

She shared a lot, feeling comfortable and able to trust Ms. Amme. Then some more problems.
"Ms. There's this person I know who told me that she's scared that maybe a friend of hers is talking badly of her behind her back. Someone told her that that friend of hers told them bad things about her. Comments and all. She's afraid to ask that friend if it's true but she's really worried. Cause just like me, she has her own issues about trust."

Lilliane narrated. Ms. Amme gave her an advice to be given to that friend. "Maybe you could tell that friend of yours to try observing her other friend for a while to know if that's true."

"But Ms. knowing that friend of hers, it's not impossible that she really backstabbed my friend." Then it was actually 9:05 am. An hour or so passed.

Time for T.L.E so they were dismissed from the guidance office and they went to the fourth floor. Lilliane thought that her turn for the test had passed but no. She made it. She didn't know if it's actually a relief or a bad thing. So it was her turn, then she tried it. She was laughing. Hyper like she usually is. She finished at least.

TLE ended and it was recess. Lilliane, Sloanne, Jaythe and Nikki went directly to the cafeteria. After buying their food, they stayed at the trellis. Lilliane heard the song Bleeding Love being played. It was Boyce Avenue's version then next was Apologize. Next was No Air also by Boyce Avenue. She remembered the Educational Trip. This song was in the playlist of Nikki's Mp3. The song she listened to together with Terrence. But that wasn't the song that touched her the most. It was IRIS. It played right after No Air. Iris reminded her about the dance during grade 6. She looked at Sloanne after realizing that it was being played. She knows that it also affects her.

Recess ended but it seemed like the longest recess she had. So many memories that she remembered and so many feelings she missed.

It was Science. They had a seatwork. Lilliane actually guessed most of her answers.

Next was Filipino. Lilliane was a reporter and so she prepared together with Lisa. When it was time for their report, they stayed in front of the class.
She can't help but notice, Terrence staying there in front of her partner.
She reached a line "hahaha" She can't actually laugh it out so, she just read it. People then laughed at her, she joined them. She really thought it was funny because her voice sounded like she was trying to laugh but she was just reading.
She also noticed Terrence smile or laugh.

After reading the text, Lilliane summarized the story. She used the word Love so many times.

Next was English. They passed their homework. Their own ending for Dead Stars. Lilliane ended it with a sad one. DEATH.

Next was Lunch. They bought fries except Sloanne who bought pizza. After eating, Lilliane asked Jaythe to come with her to return the evaluation form given by the guidance unit.

They did then, she came along when Jaythe went to their Computer Teacher Ms. Nancy. She chose a random computer then opened some files. After seeing the file name she remembered what Trisha told her. "Oh, Terrence used this computer before." It was actually Trisha's assigned computer that Terrence used in the second quarter.

Then she went to Jaythe. She played bookworm since she was doing nothing.
Then Jaythe finished. They went to the classroom. Lunch ended.

Next was Religion. Sir Demetri talked about the activity they performed the previous day. About their opinons and all. The values. Relating the values to different relationships.
Then he discussed about the third King. King Solomon.

Religion ended and it was Math time. During this day, Lilliane's section is the only one left in their floor.

They checked their assignments and had a SW. Then it was dismissal. Lilliane almost left when she remembered that she's a cleaner. So she cleaned. Then she left.

All in all. This was a really ordinary day. Nothing new.

What If..

2008-11-25T01:51:00.000-08:00

Lilliane did the same her daily routine after waking up. Her bus arrived and she grabbed her book then rode her school bus.

She walked through the school hallway and then dropped her bag then began reading her book. No classmate of hers was staying there at that time-- as far as she knows. She wasn't wearing her glasses and everything was blurry for her. Then later on, Chester arrived "Hey Chester, why did you go offline last night? I was.. about to send you the scanned documents." asked Lilliane. "There was a problem with the Internet connection." explained Chester. "Oh, well.. were you able to answer the assignment then?" Lilliane asked again. "No" replied Chester.
Lilliane then offered her notes.

Era came then sat between them, then Lilliane started to notice that her other classmates were just nearby. Then Patrick came "You're not yet done reading that? C'mon, I could finish that in a day." He told Lilliane, bragging.

The bell rang, time for music. They studied the piano. The teacher taught them a song and asked them to practice for the practical test the next meeting. Lilliane's hands ached because of the big distance the keys had in her dummy keyboard. The class ended.

Next was English. Their teacher Sir Ferdinand came and asked for their homeworks. He read some compositions then they discussed the short story "The Dead Stars"

The story is about a guy who was engaged yet fell in love with another woman. The woman felt the same for him, though he chose his fiancee for his image's sake. 4 years passed and he saw Julia-- the woman he fell for. He felt sad after seeing her. She was different, not the same woman he met.

"Class, what do you think he felt living those four years with Esperanza and not Julia?" asked Sir Ferdinand.
"Miserable" a student answered.
"What do you think is the question he kept on asking himself in those four year?" followed up the teacher.
"What if-" Lilliane answered, cut off-mid sentence.
"Correct"

Sir Ferdinand asked them to write their own what ifs. Specifically 3.

Lilliane's what ifs..
1.) What if I didn't trust HER?
2.) What if I was an only child?
3.) ___________________??

The third is something she wanted to keep, though in the end, she shared it with Jaythe and Taylor. They were both shocked reading her confession. The thing that made Lilliane cry was Andrea's what if. They comforted her but when the teacher asked her Lilliane saw a tear fall from her eye.

What if, is a question that Lilliane says or thinks about everyday. Regret causes this question to be asked. Envy as well. When people makes a wrong decision and regrets that, they tend to be jealous of the people they see. The people who are happy. They ask themselves "What if I didn't do this or that, would I be happy just like that person?" That is for things people do. What about loving people? We usually ask "What if I chose him/ her over him/ her?", "What if I never let go of him/ her?", "What if I didn't hurt him/ her?"

Pain. That causes us to regret things. When people feel pain, we would always want to find a way out, an escape. Pain is part of our lives, that's true but who would want to suffer? No one. Some people get through it but some people don't. Some breaks down and give up in life, they try killing themselves thinking that when they die they won't feel the pain anymore. One pain, one instant escape. No wonder there are many EMO people. The suicidal thing. I guess, they do that to forget things, their problems and all, because once they see the blood they won't mind anything else besides the pain or just the red liquid dripping from their wrist. Maybe, they do that to escape the pressure, the world that is filled with suffering waiting for them. That's simply it, an ESCAPE. Sure people could turn to their friends but besides sharing your problem what could they actually do? Or what if you don't have a friend to turn to at that moment when you can't bear the pain anymore? When you're alone, who would be there to catch you from your fall? During that time of weakness?

What if, how many times do we say or even think about it in a day? Often. But how many times do we get to have the chance to know the answer to that question? Rarely. We don't usually have second chances in life, but if we do, treasure it. Make the most out of it. We can't change what we've done but we could at least do something new to change the past. Something good to change the bad. Something happy to change the sad past. Live that second chance to not regret it in the future.

Lilliane has her own regrets, trusting a person. Being weak and more. She had experienced gaining second chances, she couldn't actually say that she's lived it very well but she was happy. It's true she experienced pain in between that time of happiness but people were there to catch her. She has regrets, about friends, family, school and more.

Friends: "What if this group didn't fall apart? What if I stayed being best friends with Taylor when I was in grade 5? What if I didn't experience the issue with Regina, would I be with Sloanne? Being with her is so much better than being with Regina but I was also happy before. Would I be as happy as I am with the times I spent with Sloanne if I was still with Regina? "

Family: "What if I was an only child? Would I envy my sisters? Would I still be the one to blame? What if I was spending my childhood with my parents? What if they never went away? What if my age wasn't that far from my sisters'? Would they understand me better? Would my sisters and I get along better?"

School: "What if I studied harder, would my parents be happy if I get an honor? Would they think it's enough or would they ask for more?"

Lilliane's head was filled with what ifs during the subject.

It was recess. Lilliane ate with Sloanne and talked about Sloanne's frustrations. Nate came to their table and then he talked to Lilliane about the anniversary.

Recess ended, it was Science. They studied conversions then they had an activity. Then it was Math time. They studied factoring. They checked the homework. Then it was Lunch.

Lilliane ate with Sloanne, Nikki, Jaythe and Laura, Trisha, Anne joined as well. It was fun at least having more people. They went to the Library since Lilliane needed to return something. Then it ended with them joining a contest. Then they went to the cafeteria. Lilliane and the others bought fries except Laura. They chatted then they changed locations. Lilliane talked to Trisha about her worries. Then Lunch ended.

It was still Math time, they continued their topic about Factoring then they had homeworks.

Next was Religion. Sir Demetri asked them to have a count-off. Lilliane had 5 so she was part of group 5. She was the one assigned to use the blindfold. She was partnered with Lisa. Lisa directed her through the venue her hands got dirty trying to find the puzzle pieces. Lisa told Lilliane "By the way, the one you bumped into a while ago when you asked who's this.. was Terrence." They were the first pair to finish but Sloanne and Anne were the last to finish. The truth is they didn't finish. One puzzle piece was missing.

The whole class searched for it but the teacher got mad or irritated or disappointed or frustrated about it. The class finished but the puzzle piece was still missing. Chester asked their next teacher to be excuse to look for it. They were able to find it though they had a hard time. The class was relieved, they couldn't let another teacher give up or get mad at them.

The class finished. Lilliane was about to pay for the documentation when she noticed that Terrence was gone. She went out of the room and called "Terrence!" he looked back at her then "Here's the payment for Math" he opened his palm and Lilliane gave the money to him. She didn't actually want to let go of the money so that he wouldn't leave. But she had to. She turned back and so did he but she looked back at him, watched him go.

Lilliane and the others left as well. Then Lilliane came to her school bus. Then went home.

Start of the Countdown

2008-11-24T02:04:00.000-08:00

The sun was almost rising when Lilliane woke up. Her sister was lying beside her. She got off the bed and went to the bathroom. After taking a bath, she got dressed up-- wearing her p.e. uniform. Then she went downstairs, their dog welcoming her.

Her bus arrived and, she took her book. The bus reached their school and she got off. She walked towards the meeting area of her section together with a second year student.

She sat down and started reading, though her classmates were laughing. Then Lilliane laughed because of Keeno then he said "Why are you laughing? You have no right to laugh." It was a joke then she just let it pass.

Later on, Era came and they talked about the book she was reading. "You like Jacob?" Era asked, "No, I love Edward"
"Cullen." finished Era, Lilliane looked back and saw Edward, their classmate, just arrived. Lilliane then faced front and chuckled. 'Thank God, Era finished that' Lilliane thought then just smiled.

Later on, Sloanne came ande showed her something. "Why? Parents?" Lilliane asked immediately, worried, yet she knew the reason. "80% chance I'm gonna leave" Sloanne answered her question. "What's their problem?" Lilliane followed up. "My grades aren't high enough." Sloanne said. "Gaaaa! Why is it that they always look for reasons just to send you away?" Lilliane now said, feeling frustrated.

The bell rang, time for the Assembly. Lilliane took her bag and went to her section's line. The assembly finished and they went up to their classroom. It was T.L.E and they had a quiz. Next they went to the Allied Arts Lab. Lilliane came to Chester "Hey Chester, well, December 5 is near, and.. I was thinking, do you want to celebrate?" She asked. Chester, after hearing this, got her idea and said yes. Then they started talking about it "We're gonna order two boxes of pizzas. So we need to save up at least.. 290 pesos each." Chester said. And so, the countdown has begun for December 5, 2008.

The teacher was discussing and demonstrating things but, the truth is, Lilliane and her friends weren't listening. Until the teacher said "Practical test" They didn't know what to do. Lilliane asked Chester to show her how and he did. Then luckily, the period ended and "Class, for those who haven't done the practical test, you would be given the time on wednesday." Their teacher said.

They had their recess, Lilliane spent it with Sloanne, Nikki and Jaythe. Then they came back to the classroom for Filipino. They studied the book. Lilliane suddenly felt sick and went to the clinic to take some medicine --for headache. She came back, then next was Integrated Science. Sir John still discussed the Notation. She wasn't able to get it, because before, she was busy writing notes about their past lessons. At least, she finally got it in the end.

The class ended and it was time for English. Sir Rafael discussed about the movie Amadeus. Lilliane found this discussion really interesting. In the end, they were given an assignment-- a composition-- whether they find theirselves closer to Mozart's attitude or Salieri's.

It was Lunch, she spent it with the same people. She ate french fries, well, they all did. Then they bought some ice cream. Then, they passed by the Teacher's Faculty Center. Lilliane, Sloanne and Jaythe teased Nikki since Sir Tony was there. He wouldn't let her pass then he told the three girls "Leave her" They followed and they went to the classroom. Lilliane wrote the reminder on the board.

"CLASS, PAY 25 PESOS TO TERRENCE FOR THE MATH DOCUMENTATION. DEADLINE TOM."

Then she got some teasing from Anne, Laura, Keeno and even Matthew.

Before the lunch time ended, they were able to make a bet with Nikki. "Hold hands with Sir Tony for 10 minutes." Lilliane hopes that Nikki would really go through with the bet. She thinks that it would be really interesting.

Next was Math time. They studied Factoring but then, "Sir, Terrence" Keeno said. Lilliane looked at Terrence and "Sir 'nahigad' siya" Then Terrence neck was pinkish/ reddish in color. Then he went to the clinic. The class then took a seatwork. Terrence returned, Lilliane wanted to ask if he's okay but she couldn't so she just concentrated on her exam.

Math ended and it was P.E. Lilliane, Nikki, Sloanne mostly talked about the movie they're-- hopefully-- going to watch. The three girls were so excited.

P.E. ended and Lilliane took her bag then went to her school bus. She got home and went online. It was the end of another week's start.

An Adventure

2008-11-21T02:14:00.000-08:00

Lilliane went to school. It was a Thursday morning. She was aasigned for mentoring at the end of the day.

Their first subject was Computer. Then Recess followed.
Jaythe asked Lilliane to find Terrence and ask if he brought the class funds.
Lilliane ran out of the classroom and went to the canteen. Terrence was currently in a line to buy his food. Then "Hey Terrence, did you bring the money from the class funds?" then he just nodded.
Lilliane went back to the classroom and told Jaythe.
Then it was Integrated Science. Then Homeroom.

During Homeroom, their adviser gave them a contract which they are supposed to let their classmate/s, adviser/s, SUH and parents to sign. They are promises they made to improve their studies and behavior.

Lilliane, asked Nikki to sign. Then Keeno, but.. "Hey Keeno, I wan't to let HIM sign.. but.. I can't do it." Lilliane said. Then Keeno encouraged her into doing so.

She came in front of Terrence's desk. Then "Uhmm.. Terrence, could you please sign?" He nodded his head and Lilliane gave him the paper. He signed and when Lilliane looked at the paper, she saw how his hand writing was so small. Next was Keeno.

Homeroom finished. Chassy came to Lilliane so they would be together on their way to their club. Sloanne and Ami were there by the time they arrived.

Then the club time finished. Lilliane met up with Sloanne, Nikki and Jaythe in front of the teacher's faculty. Nikki took her seatwork in Religion and for sure, she wanted to see Sir Tony as well. Sir Demetri asked Nikki to enter the facutly room, where Sir Tony is. Then "Hey Sloanne and Jaythe, could you guys please come with me? I'm gonna change into my P.E." Lilliane said, smiling. Jaythe and Sloanne immediately got her idea and came with her.

Lilliane changed into her P.E. then went downstairs. Nikki told her how she was blushing and all when Sir Tony talked to her. They were all laughing. They passed by the canteen, by Terrence's group. Then, Jaythe suddenly told her "Lilliane get the money from Terrence now. We won't be able to see each other later." then she immediately ran.

Lilliane went to Terrence "Terrence, uhmm.. could I have the 1,000 now?" Then Jaythe came.

Thank God was all Lilliane thought. It was hard talking to.. Terrence personally. He's so quiet. Also, with all the teasing from Keeno and the others.

Lunch ended and Lilliane came to Basketball club. She was with Nica and Lisa. She played basketball with the second year girls. Which turned into a different game. Everyone tries to shoot until one last person can't. Lilliane and Katherine were the last two people. Lilliane can't really shoot the ball, unlike when she's in a basketball game. She gets to score, often. People were laughing already, even their teacher Sir John. Then luckily, she was able to shoot. Then the second club time ended.

She came to Kapatiran.

Their teacher Ms. Arlene said "Class you need paper and ballpen." Lilliane then asked permission to go back to the classroom for paper. Then she came back, the teacher discussed the things they need the next meeting.

Then, it was supposedly mentoring time for Lilliane and some other girls. Jaythe told her "Lilliane, Sloanne won't be able to buy the materials. They have some visitors at home. " Jaythe was obviously panicing. The original plan was, Sloanne would be coming with Nikki to buy the materials and Lilliane's presence would be optional. Then Nikki came "Jaythe I won't be coming unless Lilliane comes too. I don't want to go to the mall alone." With this, Lilliane missed call her father.

Her father called her, "Hey Dad, I know you told me to go home early and all. But this is a really big emergency. We need to buy materials for the Math Documentation or else, we won't have a grade." Lilliane's voice was hysterical, that even though her dad was obviously mad, he can't get to shout everything out. He allowed her and asked something. "When you arrive to the Mall, go to the Gym and meet your sister there. I need to make sure that you're there to buy things and not to spend time with your friends." Lilliane promised to follow this and then they both hung up.

Lilliane went to Jaythe and Nikki. She took all the coins she had from her bag. Then asked Jaythe to write all the things she needed to buy. Then "Lilliane, develop the pictures as well." Hearing this, Lilliane asked if the budget they had would fit. Nikki replied no and told her to search for Terrence again.

Lilliane, searching for Terrence, has been happening often. Then she did, she ran towards the bus area. She saw Patrick and asked for help. They couldn't find Terrence anywhere. Lilliane decided to go back to the classroom. She ran under the rain, at least it wasn't raining hard. When she reached the stairs, Matthew was walking downstairs and suddenly Terrence showed up "Finally" Lilliane murmered. She stoped running. Her breathing was fast, she was obviously exhausted from running back and forth.

Then Matthew pointed at her then Nikki and Jaythe were with them as well. Then "I was looking for you.. and .. you're just here. WOW" Lilliane said. Then she remembered that her things were still inside the classroom. Jaythe and Nikki waited for her. Then they all ran to the guard's house. They saw Keeno and the others and asked if they would be the ones to buy the materials but in the end, Nikki and Lilliane were assigned to.

The two girls came to Funpix, to develop the pictures. They gave the cds to the guy employee and chose the ones to be developed. They chose 100 pictures. Then they chose the size "2x3" since Jaythe texted them and agreed with the size. They paid the pictures and said that they would just come back for it. Lilliane suddenly received a text message

You have received 1 message:
From: Jaythe
Guys, just choose some pics to be developed, walletsize. Then the others, 2x3

It was too late. Jaythe called Lilliane while she was outside of the store. While talking to Jaythe, "Hi Sir John!" Nikki greeted their Science teacher. "Jaythe, let's meet up at the school gates ok? BTW Sir John just saw us" Lilliane told Jaythe, her voice was worried, afraid of experiencing something again.

Then they rode a tricycle. They reached the school grounds. Jaythe came and they entered the car.

They went to the mall. Then they ran to the 4th floor to the gym, "Miss, could you please check if Katie Smith checked in today." The employee did and said "no ma'am"

Lilliane called her father. "Dad, sis isn't here." "Yeah I forgot to tell you. You just arrived now? What time will you go home?" Lilliane then passed her phone to Jaythe. "Hello sir, we will just send her home later." Then she hung up. "Your dad said Ok"

Then they went to the bookstore. Until now, she was still running but she didn't feel exhausted at all. Then she went to the fillers section. She searched for those with 30 holes. It was hard to find one since there were many fillers. She asked for assistance but in the end, she herself found the fillers. "Miss, could you please just fix that?" She asked the saleslady, pointing at the pile of fillers on the floor. "Sure ma'am"

Then she ran to get some glue stick. Then they went to the cashier. Jaythe on the other hand brought the marble paper. Then they paid for the materials.

Next, they went to MCDO. They were so hungry. Well not hungry but thirsty. They bought Vanilla shakes and burgers, all Jaythe's treat. Then they went back to the Parking Lot.

They ate the burgers inside the car while they told funny stories. Then they reached Funpix. They took the photos. Then they came to Jaythe's house only to find out that they live near each other. Then they went to Jaythe's room. Lilliane called home to ask permission.

They went online using Jaythe's account. They asked for the documents. Sloanne passed the songs and documents. Lisa passed the questionnaire. Lilliane and Jaythe organized the photos and started making the table of contents. Jaythe typed while Lilliane pasted the pictures. Nikki placed the paste and passed them to Lilliane. Jaythe printed the title. Lilliane then typed the committees.

Lilliane was surprised to be able to do a lot of things just to help. They were placing the marble papers with pictures inside the fillers now. Then suddenly Nikki said a joke. "My God. I want to be a Doctor but here I am, placing documents inside fillers." Lilliane followed up. "Me, I want to be a lawyer.. Maybe someday, instead of being a Lawyer, I would become the girl who places stamps on people's documents." Then Nikki laughed.

"The person would come to me with the documents on one hand and ask me to read it. Thinking I'm the lawyer then I would say, 'I'll give this to the Lawyer right away' then the person would ask 'you're not the Lawyer?' I would answer 'No, but that was my dream" Nikki continued laughing. It was already 10:30PM. Lilliane was finally laughing.

Nikki noticed something "Hey Lilliane, we've been listening to the same song since we arrived here"
"It's okay. I like it." Lilliane replied. The song Nikki was talking about is 'Move, Shake, Drop' The song used for a dance in Math.

10:45 pm. Jaythe insisted on bringing Lilliane and Nikki home. Nikki and Lilliane at first didn't agree to leave. They didn't want to leave Jaythe with all the work. But in the end, they had to.
Jaythe brought Nikki home then, Lilliane. She bid goodbye to Lilliane.

Lilliane went upstairs, to her room. Her sister welcomed her with "Why did you come home this late?" then Lilliane was lying on her bed. Staring at her sister. She just felt the exhaustion now. At least she knows that Jaythe's work was decreased. She went online after getting dressed up and brushing her teeth. It was 11:30 now. 30 minutes have passed after she came home.

She said goodnight to Jaythe and sorry for leaving her with a lot of things to do. Then she played some music and went to sleep. She really had fun besides all those panicing moments.

St. Johnson's Educational Trip

2008-11-17T05:31:00.000-08:00

It was 11:00 pm. Lilliane brushed her teeth and went to bed. After some time of trying to sleep, she gave up and chatted with her sister.

Next thing she knew, it was 3:30 am. She wasn't able to sleep at all but she was still hyper. She got off her bed and took a bath. After getting dressed up, she went downstairs. She watched the television while her sister prepared her sandwiches and lunch. It was 4:00am now.

"Uhmm, manang, nakabukas na po ba yung gate?" Lilliane asked her maid feeling excited.
"Tingnan ko na sige." her maid replied before going out.

Lilliane remained sitting on the sofa. She was feeling so hyper and excited that she was tapping her shoes. Finally her maid arrived.

"It's open already."
Lilliane immediately stood up and took her bag. She then left their house.

Lilliane reached the school grounds and walked towards the chapel. She saw Keeno "Hey Lil, we went ghost hunting a while ago."
"Really?" Lilliane now asked. She then asked if she could come with them.
Lilliane went with, Nikki, Nate, Marky, Keeno and more. They went to one classroom, with Nate using his cellphone for some light. They stayed inside the classroom until.. "Hey Nate! the bus is leaving." A friend of Nate shouted.

They all ran from the third floor, Lilliane seperated from the group. She didn't know that Nikki was following her. Then she came back to the group, not knowing this, Nikki passed by the faculty room. Then, "Hi sir!!" Lilliane and the others greeted the teacher. They teased Nikki since she likes that teacher, Sir Tony. Then, she passed by Sir Tony and greeted him.

The bus was nearly leaving, Terrence hasn't arrived. Lilliane sat in front of the chapel together with Nikki, waiting. Then he arrived, Lilliane and Sloanne paid the money they borrowed from the class funds.

When Lilliane gave him the money, his hands were cold. Then, they went inside the bus. Lilliane searched for a chair. The seat beside Terrence was the only vacant seat at that moment. "Hey Lilliane, occupy all the seats.." Nikki told her, teasing. Then Lilliane looked back, hesitating. "Hey Terrence! I'll sit beside you." Jonathan offered [well, it wasn't exactly an offer but like, he was reserving the seat] then, Lilliane sat beside Abby.

They left but Patrick was missing. They found out that her joined another section's bus.

On their way to the Safari, they had a stop over. Lilliane, Sloanne and Nikki went to Starbucks. Sloanne started teasing Nikki about Sir Tony. Lilliane searched for Sir Tony then asked Sloanne, "Where is he anyway?" then Sloanne replied "Behind us.."

Lilliane looked behidn her and found Sir Tony. Nikki was blushing. They left the store and went back to the bus. The bus left again.

There's this thing now. About Maryll. Lilliane sat at the middle chair, beside Sloanne. She kept on looking back because a lot of people she could talk to were there. Nica, Marky, Keeno, Chassy, Yvette and more. But Maryll. She really got into Lilliane's nerves.

When she looks back, Maryll would react, "Why are you looking here?" Maryll asked Lilliane. Lilliane just faced front and whispered "FEELER"

She really got pissed off at that moment. Terrence was near her, well, beside Maryll. He looked perfect as usual. His face, expressionless. Lilliane was looking at him, taking a glimpse of him. Keeno and the others were so hyper that they made different jokes. They said "People who likes blah blah, shout" or some sort. The time Lilliane spent inside the bus made her feel happy.

Lilliane was still hyper, which was a bad thing. She knows that there's a big possibility that by the time they head back to school, she would be so tired and actually fall asleep. She doesn't want to miss anything and she tried her best not to sleep.

They reached their destination. They had some tour. Some picture taking. Then there was the part about satying inside a vehicle then the tigers were just outside. Not in cages, then you would be able to feed them. Lilliane grouped with Sloanne, Keeno, Nikki, Terrence, Marky, Yvette, Chassy, Matthew and more. They shared money to buy the chickens.

Lilliane was seated beside Terrence. She was scared, yes, but Matthew was funny. He was scared as well, or acted like he was scared.

The time passed by, then they returned to their bus. They had lunch. Everyone went out of the bus after reaching the dining area. Lilliane with her friends stayed inside the bus. Lilliane tried sleeping now. Listening to Nikki's mp3. Then, Keeno woke her up.

After lunch, they watched aetas perform different dances. The Dragon Fly dance, Lilliane was amazed with the softness of the guy's body. The monkey dance was amazing. The guy climbed the tree soo fast. Then the war dance. Lilliane gasped and took a step back at the ending.

Then they were able to pass the Hip Hop Bayawak and Lilliane had some pics with friends. Then they fed the crocodiles.

Then after that, they went to JEST Camp. There they were taught survival methods. The instructor showed them how to make a plate, glass, fire and more. When he showed how to make fire, "ahhh, ang galing" was Lilliane's reaction then "ahh ang gwapo" She heard a voice say and found out that it was Nikki. "Huh?" Lilliane asked, clueless. Nikki then pointed towards Sir Tony. Lilliane and Sloanne started laughing and laughing.

The camp finished and it was time to go home.
They returned to the bus.

Lilliane's irritation towards Maryll was now gone. She was even able to talk to her.Lilliane later on slept. Then she woke up, feeling the cramps on her feet.
Then, she went to the seat beside Terrence. To talk to Marky.
Well, Lilliane wanted to talk to Terrence as well but his face was covered with the curtain.

She checked the curtain if he really is sleeping. Then she asked "Did I wake you?" then he nodded his head. "Oh, sorry" Lilliane said, her voice apologetic. Then she chatted with him. Lilliane told him a lot of things though his responses were mostly, nods. That conversation with Terrence made Lilliane really happy.

Later on, Patrick [joined the bus, on their way home] asked Lilliane to listen to something. She did and it was FOB. Patrick searched for Pretty in Punk and clicked play. Lilliane knew the song. Memorize, maybe. Then she asked Terrence "Do you listen to FOB?" in response, he shook his head. "Try listening to them, they're pretty good." Lilliane then offered the left side of the headset. He took it from Lilliane's hand and placed it in his ear.

They listened. There's this line in the song Pretty in Punk "Would you mind if I sat next to you and watch you smile?"

"Oh my, it's really connected to what's happening now." Lilliane thought.

Then they continued talking. She asked "How's the field trip?" and he responded, "ok lang"

Then they had another stop over. She asked for the headset first. Then she changed into her yellow shirt. Lilliane thought of the idea that her number during the Basketball game last Intramurals was still visible in her shirt. What's more funny is that her number was 4. "Four has been my number all along" She said.

Then she returned to the bus. She again, sat beside Terrence. They continued listening to Music. Nikki then offered her mp3, since Patrick's mp3 contained a lot songs unknown to Lilliane, espescially Terrence.

Lilliane accepted it and shared the headset with Terrence again. "If ever i fall asleep, just wake me up when we reach the school." Lilliane told Terrence and he just nodded.

Lilliane though remembered hearing the song Emily and singing the line the "My heart bleeds your smile and my soul starts to die."

After a while, Lilliane drifted to sleep. She woke up with the noise of her classmates.

They made louder noise after seeing her wake up. Then someone approached her. It was Pauline. Lilliane asked what happened. "You fell asleep, and then.. you head was resting on his shoulder. He was satying still, listening to music. Then people took pictures of you guys." was what she said.

Lilliane was shock and also worried that he might be mad. She then apologized.

They shared the mp3 until they reach St. Johnson's Academy.

The day was so memorable for Lilliane. But she was worried about the next day.

Change

2008-11-14T20:48:00.000-08:00

Lilliane opened her eyes and saw the dark blue sky. After some seconds she paniced and jumped off the bed. She looked for her cellphone and found it-- unfortunately-- low batt. She opened the door and ran downstairs to ask her maid what time it is. "It's nearly 6am." her maid replied.

She ran back to her room and entered the bathroom. "Ghad, I'm late! Keeno' s gonna be mad" Lilliane murmured. She took a bath and got dressed up. Hurried downstairs and wore her chucks. She then ran out their house and rode the tricycle.

When she reached the school grounds, she saw Trisha and they went to their classroom together. Lilliane saw that only some of the dancers were there and was relieved. The Practice started. They prepared. Lilliane changed into her costume, then Sloanne placed some design on their face.

It was time, the class proceeded to the gymnasium. Lilliane was feeling nervous. They were the fourth group to perform. While the first group was performing, a teacher asked them to go outside the gymnasium and wait for their turn.

They entered the gymnasium. They went to their positions and Keeno started reading the introduction and they started dancing. The dance was nearly ending one last part, the shout. Lilliane was holding her pot at her left side, chin up, and was waiting for it. The music suddenly stopped, she waited for the boy's shout but nothing came and there, the end was ruined.

They went to their seats, Lilliane and Sloanne were feeling sad for the dance. They watched the other performances from the 1st year until the third year.

Directly after the dance, it was their lunch, or recess. Lilliane changed into her jogging pants and green shirt. She went back to the classroom, and asked Patrick to play Of All The Gin Joints In All The World by FOB.

Lilliane asked him to play the song because of the line, "I used to waste my time on dreaming of being alive, now i only waste it dreaming of you." She finished singing the song and then, Nikky came. "Hey Lil, I'm gonna tell you something" said Nikki then she dragged Lilliane to the seat next to Terrence.

Lilliane tried standing up but when she did, Nikki told her to tell Terrence how she feels. The truth is, Lilliane wanted to write a love letter to Terrence but she wasn't able to.

Lunch ended, it was the time for the fashion show. Maryll was the model for their group. Their gadget was Nintendo wii. Maryll was wearing plain civillian clothes-- has no connection with the gadget. Lilliane with her groupmates decided on giving Maryll a makeover. Luckily, Maryll brought a jacket. Lilliane asked her to wear it and then folded one side of Maryll's pants. "Hey Lil, we need some wax." Nikki said. Lilliane ran to the classroom to search for wax. She asked some of her classmates but no one brought wax with them. She then ran to Anne, Trisha and Laura but none of them has. She decided on looking for Terrence, surely he HAS.

Right after deciding on that, she ran into Terrence --luckily--. She stopped him from walking and "Terrence, nagdala ka ba ng wax?"
"Para san?" Terrence asked.
"We need it for Maryll's hair. Please" Lilliane replied.
Terrence smiled and took the wax from his bag. He handed it over to Lilliane and she said thank you. Then she immediately run back to Maryll, Nikki, Nica, Marky, and Raffy.

She then styled Maryll's hair. Then she taught him the pose she's gonna do on the runway. She did the headbang and told Maryll to do the same. Maryll wasn't able to get it at once so she did it again and again. She started to feel dizzy. Then, they entered the gymnasium. She sat beside Nikki. Lilliane's seat was just a seat away from Terrence's.

Maryll walked on the runway modelling the wii guitar. When the Fashion show was almost over, Sloanne, Keeno and Maryll went to their classmate's seats. Lilliane went out with Nica to the drinking fountain. When she came back, Sloanne was sitting on her chair so she sat beside Terrence.

Then, here comes Maryll "Hey Lilliane, do you mind if I sit there beside Terrence?"
Lilliane gave her the seat.

The fashion show finished and then, Lilliane found herself chatting with Sir Demetri again. Lilliane looks forward to the time she talks with Sir Demetri. Then it was time for their shooting. Lilliane's section was cramming into finishing the movie just to pass something.

Then Lilliane went with Nikki and Keeno. They stayed until 7pm again.

-- > >The next day -- >

Lilliane went to school.
This day was for Cleaning up and the awarding ceremony.

During recess Lilliane, Sloanne, Nikki, Julia and Patrick ordered some food.
Lunch time, they expected the food to be delivered. Since the food hasn't arrived, Lilliane called the restaurant to follow up on their order.

Suddenly their order came.

They ate and then proceeded to the gymnasium.
The awarding ceremony finished.

Lilliane stayed with Sloanne, Nikki, Keeno, Nica, Marky, Chassy and Yvette. They played different games. They also said that Terrence changed, that he's not the same guy they met in grade 6. Lilliane remembered someone telling her that Terrence isn't worth it. Lilliane thinks that maybe there's somethign more to Terrence than what other people can see. But someone also asked her "Is it that you think maybe there's something more to him than what others see OR there's something in him that you can't see in others?" she answered maybe.

Then they talked about their upcoming fieldtrip.

They laughed and laughed. Then she went home.

Hectic Day

2008-11-12T03:42:00.000-08:00

Lilliane's maid woke her up. She jumped off her bed and took a bath. After taking a bath, she got dressed and fixed her stuff. Her schoolbus came and she left the house.

Arriving at the school grounds, Lilliane started to feel nervous about their Math program and their CCF contest as well.

People aarived and the bell rang. The students went to their respective classes. The class went the AVR to have some Police talk.

Lilliane's class sat down. She stayed at the back together with Sloanne, Anne, Nikky, Nica, Keeno and Chassy. Keeno started making different jokes. Lilliane laughed and laughed. Suddenly a teacher came asking them to form a new line. Lilliane followed and later on, Nikky asked the people in that line to move closer to the people to their left. Nikky said this knowing that Terrence was beside Lilliane.

Time passed. They moved to the back again. The talk finished, and they left the AVR.

They had the contest for CCF. First was Lilliane's class. She was so nervous and, her tummy wasn't cooperating. It felt like her tummy was twisting causing her to feel like vomitting. They were supposed to be on their formation but she was having a hard time. The finished the performance, though she thinks it didn't turn out well.

It was lunch, Lilliane changed into her costume. She then practiced with her groupmates. After a while, they were given the chance to eat. Lilliane rushed to the canteen and bought some crackers and ice tea. She came back to their practice, after a while, lunch time was over.

They came inside the Auditorium to prepare for the contest. The dancers stayed at the back stage. Nikky told them "Guys, no one will go out of this room unless you're part of the documentary." Lilliane then, sat beside Marky. "Hey Marky" Lilliane greeted him, her voice like a whisper.
"Hey"
"I won't be able to.. watch him later" Lilliane told him.
"It's okay, there's a documentary video anyway."
"I know.. but.. I wasn't even able to watch him last Saturday.. I thought that maybe I would be able to see him dance today." and she sighed.

The program went smoothly, well at least that's what she knows. It was almost time for their dance. She sat at the back of the stage but left her glasses inside the dressing room. "Hey Marky, do you think my glasses would be safe there?"
"Well, just don't leave it there then."
"Well, Terrence, could I PLEASE leave my glasses with you?"
"Just leave it there" Terrence said, pointing at his bag.

She did and it was time for their performance.

She danced and it ended.

She came at the back stage again. After a while, It was time for the next performance. Terrence was part of this performance.

Lilliane ran out of the Auditorium through the back door. She ran under the cold drops of rain. Luckily she was wearing a jacket. She then entered the front door of the Auditorium together with Julie and Era. The dance started, Lilliane was staring at Terrence. Jumping up and down because Terrence looked so cool dancing there.

The dance ended and Lillaine went back to the backstage, walking under the rain. She was happy, being able to him perform.

The contest ended. They went back to the classroom and Lilliane helped Keeno with the pots. She tried asking Terrence for some help, which was- as usual-- ignored.

Sir Demetri asked "Lilliane, are you busy?" and Lilliane replied "No sir."
Sir Demetri then asked "Who is the most handsome guy for you in your class?" Lilliane didn' t reply at first but she then pointed at Terrence. Then, he asked "Is it just that he's the most handsome or do you feel something more about him?"
Lilliane didn't know what to say at first but she later on admitted that she likes Terrence.

People started going to Sir Demetri and there came the secret-sharing part. Sir Demetri knew about a lot of issues in their section. That talk with Sir Demetri made Lilliane feel really happy. The class had their asaran moments with Sir Demetri.

Lilliane went home feeling happy and all after a very hectic day.

Picnic of Two

2008-11-11T05:03:00.000-08:00

It was a Monday morning, Lilliane woke up, took a bath and dressed up for school. Her bus assrived and as usual she didn't get the chance to eat her breakfast. She stayed inside the school bus for the next 15 minutes or so.

She arrived at the school grounds and saw Keeno, Terrence, Marky, Nica and Laurie at the gym lobby.
"Good morning." Lilliane greeted them.
"Hey" replied Laurie. "We're supposed to wear regular uniform today."
"Oh, I brought mine." Lilliane said.
"Ay, wala na akong karamay." Laurie said, a little sad.
"Don't worry, I won't change yet." Lilliane told her, trying to make her feel better.

The bell rang and all the high school students had their assembly. After the assembly, they had a mass. They took the communion and Lilliane, as usual cried. She misses her parents also she was scared about the programs and projects.

The mass ended and the students were given the whole day to practice. They practiced different performances until, 1pm. During this period of time, there came lots of emotions. Lilliane and her groupmate/ choreographer Julie got mad at Amy.

The reason they got mad at her was.

Amy was absent last Friday. The group finished the dance, leaving Julie responsible to teach her the steps.Monday came, Julie was willing to teach her but she was so demanding. Julie passed the job of teaching her onto Lilliane. Lilliane started showing them her the steps when she kept on saying that she knew all the steps. Lilliane started to get irritated as well.

Some time passed and she came to Lilliane asking about her position. Lilliane said "I thought you already know?" but Lilliane still showed her the positon. Even though she's not yet finish, Ami walked out of the room. Lilliane, short-tempered, got mad now. She suddenly shouted Ami's name. She went in, saw the positions.. and then she said "okay, no more shouting." sarcastically.

Their Math teacher gathered their section and the contestants for the quiz bee. The teacher discussed the rules and all the things each participant should do. Suddenly, there came the fire drill. Everyone rushed downstairs and then came back after it was done. They talked with the teacher again and was dismissed.

It was Ralph's - Taekwondo kid, kind and helpful-- birthday. He promised to give his classmates some pizza. So they gathered inside the classroom. Lilliane, instead of asking for one, left together with Sloanne. They bid their classmates goodbye and left their bags at the guard's house.

They left the campus and bought some newspaper. Sloanne needed it for the AP dance. They were about to ride the tricycle when "Uhmm.. Lil, where exactly are we going?" Sloanne asked.
"S, the thing is.. I thought you knew where we're going." The two girls laughed and decided to go to a cafe. They walked from the school to the cafe. Lilliane and Sloanne ate some Lasagna and drank some coffee. After finishing their food, they started walking back to school.

Lilliane and Sloanne were talking and laughing.
"Lilliane!" Lilliane and Sloanne heard the voice and looked at a tricycle. Lilliane's sister was riding in it. Lilliane started to worry. They reached school and came back to their classroom.

Inside their classroom, they opened the cabinet containing the fabrics and some lost and found materials. They folded the fabrics neatly and saw some requirements left by their classmates.

Using some newspaper, Lilliane wrote on two newspapers for Patrick's TLE requirement and Terrence's group's Math requirement. Sloanne checked each desk if their classmates left some trash while Lilliane wrote the person's name on the board.

Lilliane started cleaning the compartments and reached a guy's desk. Inside this guy's desk is a half-eaten sandwich. Lilliane took it out and the girls were disgusted.

Lilliane then, sweeped the floor, she took five times on sweeping it until she was satisfied. She gathered all the dust she sweeped beside the trash bin and saw a huge pile of it in the end.

After cleaning, Lilliane and Sloanne, went to the nearest store where they could buy some metallic paper. On their way, Sloanne slipped and her pants got wet. Also, it started to smell, because of the canal water. They went to a convenient store and bought some perfume also food and drinks.

The two went to their favorite hang out place inside the campus. There they started making the props for AP. They chatted and told certain stories. They ate and drank as if they were having a picnic.

The time passed, it was suddenly dark and they needed to leave. There's a problem, Lilliane needed a pot. The girls asked the guard for permission to go back to their room. They did and got a pot. The way to their classroom was dark and scary. There's this room that no class uses and it looks so scary with some windows opened. Lilliane and Sloanne ran to go back to their bags.

They went home and had a fun day.

Bonding at ATC

2008-11-09T04:12:00.000-08:00

It was a Saturday, Lilliane woke up at around 10:00 am. She woke up hearing the fight of her cousin and aunt. She went downstairs and ate yogurt. Time passed and then, she took a bath, got dressed up and left the house.

She came to school and met up with Anne. She saw Yvette, Keeno, Nica, and Chassy as well.
"Hey, Lil, mom's coming." Anne told her.
"Ohh okay"

Anne's mom arrived at the school grounds and so, the two girls left together with Anne's father to go to ATC. Inside the car, Lilliane greeted Mr. Collins "Good Afternoon Mr. Collins." Mr. Collins was listening to a cd by Paramore.

At ATC, Anne kissed her father goodbye and entered the mall together with Lilliane. They ate at Reyes' Barbecue and drank some fruit shake. It was Anne's first time eating there and so, Lilliane was happy being able to share somehting to her friend. "Hey Lil, text Laurie now and ask her what time she's coming here." Anne asked Lilliane. Lilliane did and "Sorry, I'll just catch up with you later. Really sorry." was what Laura replied.

Lilliane and Anne decided to buy the materials themselves. They went to the bookstore. There they saw some of the materials they need. They bought the materials and left the store. Lilliane and Anne saw some ice cream shops and craved for it. In the end, they bought some sundaes and rested for a while.

Lilliane took the time and texted Yvette. Her classmates went to someone's house for some school work. Lilliane knew that Terrence would be there as well practicing for the upcoming contest. "Hey Yvette, how's the editing going and.. how's... Terrence doing?" Lilliane texted. She waited for a reply, but instead --rriing-- Lilliane answered the call.

"Hey Lil, where are you now?" Yvette's voice came from the other side of the phone.
"Hey there Yvette. I'm here in ATC now together with Anne. so.. how's -" Lilliane didn't finished when Yvette cut her off mid-sentence.
"Uhmm, Lil, you're on loud speaker right now."
"What? Why? gaah, anyways.. how's.. the practice?" Lilliane said, changing her question.
"Well, it's okay? Anyway, he's here and he's doing great." Yvette told Lilliane, knowing what' s really on her mind.
"Ohh okay, so excited to see his performance. anyway, thanks." Lilliane said, feeling really grateful.
"Okay, no problem. Bye now" Yvette said and then hung up.

Lilliane and Anne started walking again and went to a toy store. There they saw a doll with roller sjates that lights up. Anne wanted to see the lights so they searched for the button. Lilliane found it, and they saw the light. Suddenly the salesman came "Anything I can do for you ma'am?" Lilliane and Anne left the doll immediately and concentrated on the reason they went there-- to find plastic miniature animals--. Both of them felt embarassed yet they just laughed it out. After checking the animals, they found out the price and they discovered that their money wasn't enough. Lilliane texted Laurie if she could just buy the animals.

They left the store and they rested at the bench. They talked about a lot of stuff and Lilliane wanted to hear some music. Luckily, Anne brought her i-pod. After some time, a man in black showed up and sat near Lilliane. After a while, Lilliane saw the sales guy in front of a store facing the guy near her and showing a devilish smile. The guy beside her smiled back as if giving a sign or for some agreement. Lilliane didn't react until she saw that the guy became close to her than before. The man's hand was behind her now, "Hey Anne, get your i-pod now. Let's go." The two girl's left and decided to have early dinner.

They went to Greenwhich. They ordered Lasagnas, nachos and some drinks. There they talked about some problems. Problems about trust, friends, stress, family and more. They finished eating and so, thet met up with Anne's parents.

Inside the car, "Uhmm, Lilliane, are you in a hurry to go home or anything? Could we do to SM first and I'll have my hair cut?" Anne's mom asked. "No problem Mrs. Collins."

They reached SM when Lilliane's sister called.

"Lilliane are you home now?"
"Not yet. I'm here in SM. uhmm.. I might take some more time here, Anne's mom-"
"Wait, I'm still here in SM. Meet up with me at the bus terminal okay? The one near National bookstore."
"Okay"

Lilliane said her thanks and goodbye to Anne and her mom. She ran, from one end, to the other. She stepped out of the mall's door. She stopped seeing a car. A taxi stopped behind the car. 5 seconds or so passed and Lilliane decided to cross since the cars aren't moving. She ran, unfortunately the taxi decided to overtake the car. Lilliane almost got hit by the taxi, she was at least 5 inches away from the taxi when the driver hit the brake.

She ran to her sister. Her sister told her that she was so worried that she actually screamed in front of many people. They went home.

Lilliane went online and received a message from Keeno.
"Lilliane, Terrence did great a while ago. Such a waste you didn't see him."
"Yeah, I guess it would just be a surprise then" Lilliane replied, being optimistic.
"Sana ganyan din ako."
"Ano ibig mo sabihin?"
"Sana ganyan din ako magmahal"

The conversation ended there.

I Don't Believe Anybody Feels the Way I Do About You

2008-11-07T04:04:00.000-08:00

Lilliane woke up on her own this time and saw the sun nearly rising in the sky. She went back to her bed after knowing that her maid hasn't tried waking her up.

Later on, her maid did and she took a bath. She finished preparing everything she needed and was about to eat. Suddenly--Honk-- came the bus. She hurried up and took all her stuff.

She came to the school, came to the usual assembly place and left her things. She was carrying too much stuff and she sighed in relief after putting her things down.

The bell ring, the students took their bags and lined up for the assembly. Lilliane was scared about the play the class will perform later on. She was worried espescially about her voice-- it was namamalat-- since she has cough and colds. She asked Jay-- their director-- about the lights and sounds. The assembly ended and the student went to their respective classrooms.

For the first period, it was English. Sir Felix talked to the class and then, allowed the class to continue the shooting of their project.

-- >During the shooting -- >

"Uhmm.. Nikky? Could I like.. not be the LONER?" Lilliane asked.
"Sorry but NO. You acted that role before, why can't you do the same today?" Nikky replied.
Lilliane didn't say anything and came to her seat. For the second time, seh acted like a LONER.

Lights. Camera. Action.

"Good Morning class"

"Good Morning Mr. Divinagracia"

"I want you all to be quiet because there will be some visitors outside. So our lesson-"

"Before that sir, we would like you to meet.. THE LONER!!" they all looked at the loner and pointed at her. Some people even threw newspaper at her. Some teased her "LONER, LONER.." chanting the same thing over and over again. Lilliane-- the LONER-- had some tears falling in her eyes. She felt like the words were really for her.

"Class what is law of Inertia?"

"Sir let the LONER answer."

"Ok, so what is the Law of Inertia?"
"The Law of Inertia is.. is.. the continuous movement of an object until a force acts on it." Lilliane answered.

"NERD!!" the class shouted. Lilliane even heard some people say, "Oh no! LONER then a NERD!" also, "Loner and a Loser, what a combination."

Lilliane started to feel uncomfortable with her role. For the second time, they threw paper at her and laughed at her.

the shooting continued and finished.

-- > end of shooting -- >

Lilliane was relieved that she finished the shooting. Recess, then Math.

Lilliane was part of the dancers. They danced and danced and then Math finished. They started preparing for the play. They had early lunch. 15 minutes before the play, Lilliane started panicing. She changed into her costumes. The teachers who came to watch entered the set. The play started.

-- > Play -- >

Lilliane acted as the mother who killed her own son.

The play started with her daughter who got raped by the Mayor's son. Her son now, got mad and wanted to have revenge. He did, he killed the mayor's son. The mayor went to their house with policemen and wanted to arrest the boy. That's when the guy's mother killed him.

-- > End of Play -- >

Lilliane and her groupmates finished their play. Next was their classmates' play. The time her classmates were performing, Lilliane's eyes were searching for something, or should I say someone. She looked and found him. Terrence was looking handsome and perfect as usual. Lilliane didn't truly understand the play because if staring at Terrence.

The class went back to their classroom. They were supposed to have AP, but instead, they had practices for Math. Lilliane danced and later on, knew that Terrence would be dancing as well.

The other group of dancers practiced and Lilliane was sitting in front of them. Terrence was somewhere in the same room. Lilliane, again, was staring at him. Nikky suddenly shouted "Lilliane!" to catch her attention. Nikky was actually calling her for some time now but she wasn't responding.

Dismissal, Lilliane stayed until 7pm.

During that period of time, a lot of things happened. Lilliane practiced for their dance. Later on, the other group practiced Keeno-- a funny and friendly guy, talented as well-- formed a dance and had some show down with Nikky's group. Lilliane joined Keeno. She had fun and got tired.

The people still there went to the guard's house and played Truth or Dare. People got bored and changed it to the Dare game. Lilliane was dared to ask a guy "Pwede ka ba ligawan?" it was Terrence. It was a joke of course, Lilliane would never do that. But here's the thing, Lilliane was scared to even hear his answer "Oh no, what if he says no..??" Lilliane thought. Terrence didn't respond. He went home but still didn't give any answer. The teacher asked him already and that's when Lilliane knew. "When I saw his mouth, I read --hindi--" was what their teacher said.

Lilliane went home, she wasn't frustrated about what the teacher said. But she can't help thinking about it.

In the trike, Lilliane thought "He's the only boy in that activity.. I'm so jealous. gaaah, how I wish he's part of our group. What if, he doesn't really like me?"

Lilliane wishes that Terrence likes her back. That she's the only girl liking him as well. Maybe then, he would like her back. Seeing how much Lilliane cares about him.

Tears

2008-11-05T17:13:00.000-08:00

It was 4:30 am, the sky was still dark. Lilliane woke up and rushed to the bathroom. After some time, she finished taking a bath and got dressed up. It was past 5:40 am and she haven't left the house "Oh no, I'm late" she said then sighed.

She asked her maid to drop her off to the tricycle lane and got so irritated because her maid's so slow. "ainaku manang, hindi ka ba pwede magmadali?" Lilliane asked.

She arrived at the school grounds and saw her classmates in front of the chapel. It was a busy day for the first year students, with the programs and all.

They practiced their dance and later on went to a mass.

Lilliane was the commentator for this mass. She arrived at the chapel and started to get scared. Her hands started to get cold for the fear of making a mistake causing the whole 1st year to laugh at her. She practiced and was actually able to memorize the introduction.

Everything was going fine when suddenly, the mic didn't give out a sound and it was at the responsorial psalm! "Oh no!! God please help me, I don't want to screw up" Lilliane thought.

"Please all kneel" Lilliane read from her copy and she as well knelt down. Her knees were shaking and she noticed that her hands were the same. The singing of the Our Father came and she held the sister's hand, her hands were so cold she was afraid the sister might notice. The communion came, she took the body of Christ and sat down.

"God, ayoko na magkaron ng hinanakit sa parents ko. I just want to be with them, though I understand the reason why I can't. They're working so hard for me to have the things I want and need and I'm grateful for that. I just.." suddenly tears fell from her eyes. "I just want them to be with me during the important occassions in my life. Please God help me. Help me get through everything." She wasn't finished praying when a KOA member tapped her shoulder.

The mass ended.

Later on during their break, Nate came and "You screwed the mass. I wanted to hit you with the mic." Lilliane started to feel scared.

An hour before their lunch, Lilliane and her classmates danced the one they prepared. It was the elimination so they had to do their best. It was going fine for Lilliane when suddenly.. the book she was balancing fell. She pretended like nothing happened and continued to dance.

After lunch, they, again danced. This time, the book didn't fall but she was late at a lot of things. "gaah!" Lilliane reacted.

Dismissal, she stayed in school. She practiced another dance, for a different program. She started having a headache with her groupmates being pasaway.

7pm, they finished. She went home.

Reminiscing

2008-11-05T04:17:00.000-08:00

It was noon, Lilliane and her classmates was in the middle of working for a project. Lilliane decided to sit by herself. The wind was blew her hair, covering her face. Her eyes were focused to the clouds.

Hearing her classmates laughter made her remember back when she was in gradeschool. Laughing the same way, hanging out with friends worry-free.

She remembered the time she had a friend named Anne Collins. Lilliane met her in garde four. It was nearly the end of the school year. Anne invited some people for her birthday party, then the next thing, Lilliane was a part of them. They decided to go to Wonderland-- a mini carnival inside a mall--

They came to the mall together with Era, Natasha, Maryll, Rian, Renz and more. Lilliane became so close to Anne then, also Era. The schoolyear ended but Lilliane and Anne took the chance to see each other to play a game. "Hey Lil, let's go play KH at my house. I'll help you get through the game" Anne said enthusiastically. "Suuureee." Lilliane replied, grinning.

So, Lilliane came to school during the vacation to get her newly released books and then came directly to Anne's house. There they played for the whole day and had lots of fun. Laughed and talked about lots of stuff. Night was coming so Lilliane needed to leave. Anne's dad offered to drop her off to a stop and so, she accepted it. She came home and was so happy.

Lilliane then remembered what happened to Era and her during grade five. Era and Lilliane fought, the teacher came to help them fix the problem.
"Miss, she's soo bossy" Era told Miss Amme.
"What's wrong with trying to get things done? I asked you what you wanted and didn't assign you JUST anything." Lilliane defended herself.
"But you're NOT the leader, so why do you have to do that?"
"Cause if I don't we won't have a grade!"
"Girls, you better fix this. " Miss Amme told them.
"But.." Era paused and suddenly her tears fell "Mi-i-ss.. sh-she's it's her *hiccup* fau-lt! "
That's when Lilliane's tears fell too. She felt like she's the bad one even though she had no bad intentions when she did that. Lilliane promised once that she'll never forgive Era but a big-mouthed girl said that and it reached their adviser Miss Amme. In the end, they became friends again but not as close as before.

Like a glass, once you break it you'll try to glue it. But even though the glue you use is strong, You won't be able to use it again. There would always be a crack and you won't be able to fix it.

You may think the story about Era is over but it isn't thinking about that incident reminded Lilliane about the fight They had last grade six.

It was their pictorial for graduation pictures. Lilliane was done then Fiona talked to her. Era came to Fiona and asked "Why are you talking to HER?" and Fiona replied "Cause she's my friend too"

Lilliane said goodbye to the girls still inside the room. The next day, someone told her the things Era said. And she got angrier than before. Time passed and they became friends again.

Lillaine still lookign at the sky heard a voice calling out to her and then, there, it was time for her part in the project.

Visitation of the Gods

2008-11-04T05:15:00.000-08:00

A week before the Closing Ceremony of the Rosary month, Lilliane's school announced the visitation of important people to their school.

The teachers announced through the assembly, and the students were expected to behave themselves. Espescially Lilliane's class because they are the 'star' section.

Their class behaved, at least that's what Lilliane thinks or well they tried.

Every single day Lilliane remembers the visitation, she can't help but think about the preparations her school does just to please the people evaluating. They use Tarpaulins just to welcome the evaluators.

After the Closing Ceremony Lilliane went to her Computer class, she then got more frustrated. Seeing the computers in the laboratory getting locked each time they don't need to use it. "WOW, just because the 'visitation of the GODS' occured, they're doing all this stuff now?" Lilliane thought and gave out a heavy sigh. "They make us speak in English, well that's really needed since we're in a private school, but.. do they need to do all this preparations and changes?"

Closing Ceremony at St. Johnsons Academy

2008-11-04T04:53:00.000-08:00

It was 5:30 am, the darkness still visible in the sky. Lilliane woke up with the sound of her maid's voice "hoy neng, gising na. Baka dumating na naman yung bus mo hindi ka pa nakakakain." Lilliane jumped off her bead, feeling annoyed of her maid for no apparent reason.

"ugh" Lilliane murmured "Why do I need to have classes so early in the morning?" Lilliane complained to herself.

After taking a bath, she fixed herself up, wore her uniform, etc. and then the bus came. "WOW" was all she can say, for not being able to take her breakfast-- which wasn't unusual at all--.

Her bus reached the school grounds and then she walked towards the usual assembly place -- near a tree. She saw her classmates, talking and laughing. She dropped her bag and sat down. She began reading her book not minding the people around her much.

The bell rang and it was time for her to pick her bag up and go to their classroom.

Inside their classroom, Chester-- their president-- announced that they needed to go back downstairs for the assembly. The assembly was for the closing ceremony of the Rosary month. People listened as the HS choir sang their song piece. Sloanne and Keith-- funny classmate of Lilliane-- were part of the choir.

After that, different people removed the Tarpaulins each section passed. Lilliane just stood there and watched.

Terrence

2008-11-02T21:14:00.000-08:00

--> rewind --> first quarter-->

"hey S, who do you think should i pick? The guy i could talk to, or the guy.. that has a smile that could make me melt? Like the mysterious type.." Lilliane asked Sloanne.

"I dunno, just choose anyone you like" Sloanne replied, rolling her eyes-- obviously irritated.

"ugh." murmured Lilliane feeling frustrated.

--> > -->>

So, Lilliane chose Adam but got heart broken. But she found herself liking Terrence.

As a lot of people know, Terrence is Lilliane's first crush. The very quiet guy she met in grade one. Who would've thought that she'd end up liking the same guy during grade one and her first year in HS?

Well, he's still the same. So Lilliane isn't surprised to find herself liking him again.

Lilliane-- has plans of telling him-- won't tell him how she feels. She learned from her mistake, confessing to Adam was something.. really wrong. Lilliane thinks that if she confessed to Terrence, he would start ignoring her.

Lilliane's friends started teasing her to Terrence. One time their class had an activity and, this is when Lilliane liked Terrence more than before.

Terrence was asked to do something and he followed it. Shy as usual. He was looking down when he scratched his hair and suddenly looked up. Lilliane was taking a glimpse of him and she saw his smile-- her favorite smile-- she felt like falling into her knees melting from his smile. She felt like he's the most gorgeous guy she've seen.

"Ghad" Lilliane whispered to herself hitting her forehead. "He has the sweetest smile I've seen. I wish he's smiling just for me.." Lilliane thought, and gave out a sigh.

Lilliane is trying to, be close to him and talk to him. To know more about this mysterious guy she fell for. Not expecting he would catch her but hoping he would. Like what someone said before, fall for the sake of falling.

As for now, she hopes that Terrence doesn't notice. She doesn't know if she's falling in love with him or if it's only like. But she fears of getting hurt again.

Nightmares

2008-11-02T03:40:00.000-08:00

Lilliane fell asleep

--> >

It was a sunny morning and Lilliane was inside her school's gymnasium sitting down. Her best friend Devin approached her and sat beside her. Suddenly, Lilliane cried and faced Devin.

"Devin, my sister's DEAD!" and she cried so hard. Devin just looked at her, with sympathy and confusion seen all over his face.

-- > >

She suddenly wakes up. She thought of it as nothing though deep inside she started to worry, what if it really happened.

She took a bath and wore her uniform, as usual not being able to eat her breakfast. Her maid, being used to it, didn't prepare anything for her.

She rode her school bus and she arrived at the school grounds. She walked through the school hallway and saw the first year students. She placed her bag at the usual place where her classmates stayed.

Lilliane, feeling sleepy and exhausted waited for Sloanne. When Sloanne arrived she started to share her nightmare.

"'morning S. I had this nightmare.. " Lilliane started, looking down.
" You know that we have this problem with.. Devin right? but he's part of this dream, well nightmare" She continued touching her forehead, feeling a little dizzy. "I was at the gymnasium, sitting down, like there was an occasion, and then he sat beside me.."

Lilliane paused for a moment and Sloanne asked her "Then?"
"I suddenly told him that my sister's dead and started crying"

She went through the day like it was a normal day. She went home and then did her homeworks. Next she prepared for bed.

She fell asleep

-- > >

Lilliane was inside the living room of a certain house. She stared at the couch and saw a doll at the floor sat a guy.

Because of curiosity, Lilliane came near the doll and was shocked seeing the look of the doll.

The doll's face is scary, as if it was about to kill her and it has a smile in it's face. she noticed it's lips, it has the shade of black, and the red stain is very visible. Besides the color, it's lips was dry-like it was dehydrated-- and it wants something to drink.

Lilliane stepped back and that's when she saw the guy sitted on the floor.

The guy has a white complexion, his both hands at his sides and he has a short hair.
Lilliane looked at his face and got scared, seeing that the guy has no eyes and like it was crying with blood.

< < --

Lilliane woke up, now more terrified than the day before. She was scared that maybe her dreams has a message for her like her dream before.

-- > >rewind -- > > Summer -- > >

Everything was a blur, Lilliane suddenly woke up, exhausted, her breathing was fast. Her face, confused and she looks at her hands. She got scared after seeing her hands full of blood.

< < --

A few days later after that dream, Lilliane was awaken by her grandmother's cry.

"Lilliane, Jane, wake up, my mom's dead!" Lilliane's grandmother cried. She stayed at home, with her cousin feeling scared. Like her dream has some connection to what's happening.

-- > > Present -- > >

Lilliane came to school, worried -again- but at least she came home knowing everything's alright.

Rejection

2008-10-31T08:26:00.000-07:00

Now after a sad time for Sam's death.

Lilliane experiened another heartbreak.
Lilliane went online and saw Adam online.

ADAM:
ADAM: Lilliane, I have something to tell you..
ADAM: But don't get mad
LILLIANE: Yes? What is it?
ADAM: You're not the girl I like..
ADAM: I'm sorry
LILLIANE: It's okay, don't worry

And so.. Lilliane experienced another rejection.

She chatted with Patrick.

LILLIANE: ei Richard
PATRICK: you ok now?
LILLIANE: I seriously don't know..
LILLIANE: life's unfair x[
PATRICK: no, lifes fair to everyone
PATRICK: it just needs to be unfair to some people to be fair with others
LILLIANE: then, now.. life's unfair to me to be fair with Adam huh?
LILLIANE: then still.. life's unfair..
PATRICK: well in my case i think about other's happiness before my own..
LILLIANE: i'm tired of that.. i've done that soo many times and i just hate it now.

Their conversation ended and Lilliane started trying to move on. At the same time her friends started moving on too, from their own heart breaks.

Shocking News

2008-10-31T07:57:00.000-07:00

Lilliane entered their door's house and saw her sister fixing the light, her cousin Jane helping out. Jane suddenly spoke "Lil, Sam's dying" her voice, calm.

Lilliane chuckled saying "Stop joking-" She suddenly paused and stared at her cousin "--you.. aren't.. serious.. are you?" Lilliane finished. Saying the words slowly and her voice worried.

"I am serious Lil, I'm sorry" Her sister now confirmed her.

Lilliane still didn't want to believe and ran to her room. Now she cried, her tears not stopping. Her parents went online and chatted with her. She couldn't stop crying and her eyes turned red. She wanted to visit Sam immediately. She remembered what brother Ric told them--"Tell your love ones how much you love them while they're still alive and not when they're dead already." After remembering this, she started to cry harder and harder forcing her parents to ask her sister to call the veterinarian and let her visit.

"Hey, Lil, the doctor said yes so go now" her sister said, with a voice that obviously sounded irritated.

What does she expect? Lilliane won't care? She loves Sam so much so what's with the irritated voice?

Usually, Lilliane would have fought with her sister but she let it pass and rushed to change clothes and ran out their house to grab a trike.

When she reached the Veterinary clinic, the doctor let her in. She entered the room and saw Sam lying down. Sam honestly stinked but she didn't care, she understands.

She just sat there, staring at Sam, whispering words of goodbye because she can see he's fighting for his life but he's suffering.

She left the clinic and thaked the doctor, she walked her way back to her house because she wanted some time to think and some fresh air. She was silent, and she wanted her walk never to end. She started crying again, the tears she tried very hard to keep. She didn't cry in front of Sam, believing that Sam would suffer more and have a hard time leaving.

The next day, she rode her school bus and started crying secretly. Her classmates came to her after noticing that she's crying. Some of them laughed while some of them sympathized.

The day passed by fast like, Lilliane can't wait to go back home and be able to visit Sam again ALIVE.

She went home and.. Sam's dead. Her sister brought sam to be.. crimated.

St. Johnson's Recollection Day

2008-10-29T17:34:00.000-07:00

Lil went to their Religion class

Sir Demetri came to class carrying bulletins in his right hand.

"Class, go to your seats and be quiet. I would hand out some bulletins for you to show to your parents and then we will go to the Auditorium."

"Hey Yvette, what do you think is that about?" Lilliane asked wih curiousity.

"I have no idea" Yvette replied grinning.

At the Auditorium..

"Class, take your seats." Sir Demetri ordered. The class immediately followed and Lilliane was sitting next to Sloanne.

"1st year, we have organized a recollection day for you. But what IS a recollection?" Sir James asked.

Some people answered and later on, Nate came to the microphone to answer.

Nate-- now the boyfriend of Sloanne-- said some stuff and later on the students laughed but the teachers didn't.

After the explainations and talks, the students went back to their classrooms.

dismissal came and Lilliane went back home. She showed the bulletin to her sister and asked her to sign.

August 21-- the day of their class' recollection-- came and Lilliane commuted going to school. Their class was with another section which was somehow bad for her. At their destination, the two sections had 2 different rooms and 2 different speakers. Lilliane's section had Brother Ric as their speaker.

He talked about a lot of stuff-- about families, self, others, faith, etc.-- Lilliane cried about the 'family' topic. There's this activity about saying sorry and thanking people by writing letters.
Lilliane wrote a letter for Adam, and thanked him. She also gave him the rosary bracelet her sister gave her. On the other hand, she said sorry to Charlie for something personal.

"Sorry Charlie." Lilliane said nervous of what he might say. Charlie didn't speak, and just looked at her. After a moment of silence, she decided to go fix her things. Lilliane finished fixing her things and next, she went to the chapel for the confession.

On her way, her thoughts was all about the sorry thing with Charlie. "Stupid, I know he wouldn't forgive what I've done. He might actually think I'm saying sorry because I like him again! Oh well, I need to relax and at least I took the initiative to say sorry." then, she gave out a heavy sigh.

At the confession booth, she said a lot of sins, and then went out to sit. Her friends even in the chapel, teased her about Adam. She sat near Adam though it was because Sloanne was there.

The sister asked them to transfer seats. And later on, Adam was already seated beside her.

The mass ended, it was time to go back to their school.

Back to their school, Laurent asked the dancers for the upcoming contest to stay. Lilliane was one of them. They practiced and practiced then they went home.

After reaching home, a shocking news welcomed Lilliane home.

New Adjustments

2008-10-25T07:00:00.000-07:00

Lil went to her school bus. And after two months-- actually it felt like a year or so-- she saw her busmates. She had this busmate named Jesse. Lil was thankful that Jesse was actually a sophomore. She helped Lil find her way to the new-- well new to her-- building. She dropped her off to her classroom and since, Lilliane was waiting for Sloanne, she came with Jesse.

Later on, Sloanne came "Hey Lil, what's up?" Sloanne said, her voice somewhat enthusiastic yet dull because of the hang over vacation.

"Nothing much" Lilliane replied with a smile.

Both of them, went inside the classroom and sat beside each other. Later on, they had an assembly and Lilliane was surprised seeing Devin dashing off. "Ei, S how come Devin's still here? I thought he was going to study at Millerstone academy"

Sloanne followed the direction Lil's fingers pointed at. "Oh, I guess we'll be hanging out with him again this year"

Back in the classroom, the teacher assigned them to their respective seats and Lil was asked to Seat beside Gordon Armstrong. "Oh well, I guess i WOULD be quiet during the first quarter."

That thought didn't happen when she started talking to Yvette Osment--a girl that could be easily approached and funny--. At Yvette's left, Adam Sandlers-- he was uhmm, kind (?), friendly, etc.-- was assigned to sit, and at Yvette's right, Patrick Summerton-- a good guitarist-- sat.

"Hey, you're singing Chao xi Huan Ni right?" Yvette asked Lilliane with a smile on her face.
"Oh, hi. yeah I'm singing that. Currently addicted to it" Lilliane replied smiling back.

She later on, fell for Adam.

Graduation

2008-10-25T06:12:00.000-07:00

So..

This is the 6th year of Lilliane in elementary and, she's nearly graduating. After the issue with Regina, she started to be closer to her other classmates. But here's the thing, she also, started to forgive Regina. During their graduation practices, Regina is seating next to her and so Lil talks to her.

As the teachers rolled the red carpet at the gymanasium, Lillianes suddenly said "What if, Sadako came and crawled towards the honor students?" Regina replied laughing.

"That would be, freakish." then Lil, as if ignoring what Reg commented, said "Then, she suddenly stands up and congratulates the students.. I guess that would be an interesting sight."

Regina, again laughed. Then Regina--trying to crack a joke now said, "Then, the music, it sounds like someone's getting married" Lilliane suddenly said, "yeah, you.. marrying Eddie!" and gave a grin.Regina laughed, but Lil continued "oh yeah! Don't forget Sadako, she would be the one helping you wiht your traje de boda" and they laughed-- now even Ella joined them--.

That was only one of the funny conversations, Regina and Lil had.

Regina was all happy about her graduation. Thinking that Gradeschool is so boring.
This is where her parents come and turn her all sad.

While, Lil was doing her homeworks, the phone suddenly rings. "rriiiing"
She got up to her feet and reached for the phone. "Hello?" she said.

"Hey sweetie" the person on the other end said. It was her mom. "hey mom, so.. are you coming to my graduation?" Lilliane said, enthusiastically.

Her mom sighed, as if something's wrong. "Oh, sweetie, I'm sorry but I won't be able to go to your graduation. And so is your dad. I'm really sorry, we know this is important to you but I hope you understand us."

"Don't worry about it mom, i just hoped you'd be able to come.That's all. But it's ok, I understand" Lil said, trying to sound understanding. Her mom sighed with relief. She then said goodbye and hung up.

Before going to sleep, Lil, covered herself with the blanket and "WOW! Nice graduation I'll have" she thought, a tear sliding down her cheek. She fell asleep, crying. There was nothing new about this. She was used to, disappointment. Well, as far as she knows, her parents weren't actually there at the special moments of her life.

So, the day of her graduation came, she woke up, energetic. While she took a bath, she started crying, remembering that this day would be like any other day. She would just get her diploma, with her sister coming as her guardian of course.

She started fixing up. And, at her school, they had the graduation ceremony. She took her diploma, hurray, for her. She WAS happy, but she would've been happier with her parents actually accompanying her on receiving her diploma.

Trust. Best friend. END

2008-10-21T04:03:00.000-07:00

There's this classmate of Lilliane whom she trusted a lot. she became best friends with this girl and spent most of her time with her.

Her name is Regina. By the time the month of December came. Sure it was almost Christmas, but who would've thought that in this said month would Lilliane lose a lot.

By the fifth day in December, Lilliane was invited by Fiona and the others to go somewhere after dismissal.

Dismissal came, Lil, Fiona, Devin and some other guys came to a shop. when they entered, Devin even said "hey, swerte natin dude, sakto yung upuan." After ten minutes of laughter and fun, Fiona suddenly told Lil "Lil, Ms. Mia and Ms. Lea are there", Lilliane passed it to Devin and the group went out of the shop together with the teachers. Lilliane immediately cried, the tears were overflowing. The sudden realization that what she did was wrong, that all the things her parents expect from her would be unreachable.

The group went back to school. They sat on the benches and chatted with Ms. Mia. after that, they came inside Ms. Lea's office and wrote an essay fo what they did. Devin was like "I know who told the teachers.. it's Regina!" but Lil and Fiona said "No! she would never do that, Reg is a good person!"

Minutes or maybe even an hour passed when they were allowed to get out of the room. As soon as Lilliane got out, Kevin came and said "It was Regina who told them" with that revelation, Lil unconsciously sat on the ground and started crying. Harder this time. She couldn't believe that Regina would be able to do such a thing. risking the good future of the people involved, all their hardwork, gone.. in an instant. Fiona helped Lil get up.

Lilliane went home and suddenly the phone rang. She answered "Hello?" she tried to make her voice sound normal in case it was her parents who were calling but it sounded shaky. From the other line of the phone, Regina's voice came and it sounded apologetic. "hello? Lil? I'm so sorry.. God just wanted me to stop you from doing this again. I'm sorry"

Lil started crying again and this time, all her anger and frustrations exploded, making her shout even on the phone. "Why the heck did you do that?! don't you know how many people got involved, people losing the things they worked hard for!"

Regina answered "I wasn't able to take it caue you joined them already.. i can't take it anymore.. what if someone really catches you even if I didn't tell the teachers?"

Lil then answered "Damn it! don't include God's name here! now you say it's because of me? so now all the blame for the other losing things they worked hard for is because of me?!? WTF, shouldn't it be the other way around? instead of telling them about it cause I joined shouldn't you have kept it? You're not even God whou would know if we would get caught. what if we didn't? then everyone would've been safe. but you just needed to go and mess things up with all your stupid beliefs and worries. I can't believe I trusted you, and to think that Fiona and I defended you from Devin's accusations?" after saying this, Lilliane sighed.

Regina answered "I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to.. I was just worried"
Then they both hung up.

The next day, after all the tears Lil had shed, she still cried. Her so-called best friend even said that "she was never my best friend" .

New Things In Life

2008-10-20T05:31:00.000-07:00

...Fifth Grade..

Lilliane was joined with smart people. At first she wasn't able to cope up with the pressure or expectations given to their class. but as time passed by, she was able to ade she actually met a good friend.

early morning, Lil saw students crowding in some bulletin posted by the teacher. Lil went into the crowd and checked out the post. She then knew that it's an art program and she's part of it!
On the day of the program, they studied art stuff, since Lil only had the 12 pieces pastel set, she got up to her feet and took all the courage she could get to ask Sloanne.

Sloanne is the kikay and English speaking type of girl, one look and you'll feel like you won't get along. But who knew, when she came to Sloanne, she actually let her borrow the pastel. ever since then, they started to become close. Lilliane was happy to have been able to meet Sloanne.

Lilliane met some other people and became close to some of them too. In her class, she became close with Fiona. She was her busmate. She have been there with Lil through a lot.
She met Wade--the smart, liked by a lot of girl kind of guy--, Chester-- uber smart, leader type kind of guy-- , Vanessa-- an anime fan..well Sasuke, hilarious and friendly type of gal--, Kevin-- a smart, math genius and hilariously funny type of dude--, and, Nate.

The issue about Nate is different and the stroy goes like this...
Lilliane at first thought of Nate as the guy she would never like-- with being crazy like, chaotic and all--. But she was wrong, by the time the third quarter came, she had a crush on him. The heart break comes here.. when their batch had a dance. In that dance, Lil decided to confess.

During the dance.. Devin-- athletic dude-- encouraged her to confess. when she actually did, she found herself crying cause of the pain of getting rejected. Though Nate was 'are you okay?' and all towards Lil, she didn't feel fixed. As if there was a hole in her heart that causes her to fall apart and break down in front of all those people. 'Why didn't I just hide this? Why did I have to get rejected and worse like what happened before, he's in love with my best friend!' was all in her mind. Yes, Nate was unconditionally in love with Sloanne.

So you see? Her all so happy life before have turned into an unforgettable nightmare.

New Friends, New Enemies, Another Chapter of Her Life.

2008-10-18T09:23:00.000-07:00

In St. Johnsons Academy, Lilliane attended her elementary years.

She met different people, and.. actually liked someone :))
His name's Terrence- good looking, quiet, mysterious and kind (?)
For Lil, he was the kind of guy everyone would notice. But, as a kid, she never took it seriously.

In her second year of elementary, she gained more friends but also new enemies. There's this girl named Margie- tall, has fair skin, good in singing, boastful- whom she hated the most. She also had her own group of friends- with Nikki as their leader. She had an unexpected fight with one of the group members. Clara got mad at her- cause her crush likes Lil- and she got mad at her too. they fought and had awkward moments since they are busmates. Lil became one of the top students again. :]

In her third year of elementary, her best friends from grade 2, weren't the same. They were distant with her- what do you expect with kids?- and so she met new best friends. She had lots of friends- mostly girls- that shared different experiences with her. She went to Laura's house together with Nica. She went to Reese's house together with Angel for their dance. She had lots of fun, swimming at the clubhouse, going to the park and looking at Reese's pets. Before the school year ends, Reese and Angel sent Lilliane a letter. It stated that:

Hey Lil,

Since the school year is ending and we might not be classmates anymore on the third grade, we might as well meet up on the first day of school. At dismissal, we'll meet up at the benches near the trees. Don't forget to come! And, i'll never forget you :]

Love,

Reese and Angel >.<

The vacation ended, but on the first day of classes, the promise made by the three was unfulfilled. they all forgot and like Lilliane's friends in grade two, they turned distant. On the fourth year of elementary, Lil became the president of the- noisiest- class. Though their class has a bad reputation cause of the noise, Lil's happy she was with them. She met this guy whom she liked, a guy--tall, good looking, smart, kind, humorous--named Stan. This was the time she experience her heart get broken. He turned out liking Lil's best friend, Arian. She gave up.

Lilliane Smith.

2008-10-16T06:56:00.000-07:00

On July 1995, a girl named Lilliane Smith was born. Her mother, smiled after seeing her third daughter. Lilliane's two other sisters, Katie and Marie are older than her by 8-9 years. Lilliane's father was a seaman, meaning he wasn't usually home. After two years of taking care of her and organizing her birthdays, her mother-- Elizabeth -- went abroad. Lilliane lived with her two sisters, her cousins, aunts and maid/s. Later some time, their family moved into a different house.

Lilliane celebrated her fourth birthday. She grew up into a girl who loves to sing, write, draw, and loves taking pictures. You could consider her as a happy-go-lucky child. well, she's somehow a spoiled kid since she's the youngest, so she usually gets what she wants. months passed, when her aunt came to her and told her that she would be going to school.

On her first day of Summer classes, she cried. Her aunt stayed outside the door, afraid of her reaction to 'socializing' with people. Little by little, kids approached her and she started to make some friends. Her summer classes finished.

She came to kindergarten, there she wasn't the 'new kid' she had many friends now and she's a top student. One of her classmates- Joshua Bradley - confessed to her. She started laughing, she thought of him as gay -with the way he walk, talk, stand and all. She hated her teacher, Ms. Lannie. Ms. Lannie was so strict and her face looks scary. She finished her year of being a kindergartener.

Her parents called, telling her that she would have to leave her present school. Since she's just a kid, she had no choice but to follow. The school year started, she's now in her prep year. Here, she was able to adjust easily and was able to make lots of friends. She was happy, though she's not a top student anymore. She graduated.